One quality i don't have alot of is restraint. I have a hard time holding back the way I feel, also if I feel strongly about something and I know i'm right...look the fuck out. After shyness thats the main reason I don't talk or post much, i'm zot martial here on SG.
Speaking of this site, i do love it. All the girls are beautiful, and i've made a few friends here, I thank you. You have given my dead soul some hope that this whole world isn't as fucked as I think it is sometimes. SG has become an addiction for me, I know i'm not alone in that, but it dosen't sit well with me. For lack of a better word, i'm not a starfucker. People are people no matter if their on TV, in a band, or naked on a website. Truely only a few of the girls have reached a level of fame to be called a star. I guess it isn't setting well with me because for a second I think... wouldn't it be cool to meet this person or that person....Then I think....I'm an asshole, over half the people I meet think so, what would make this meeting any diffrent ? why waste my time or theirs ?
Ok done feeling sorry for myself 
That was quick huh 
Fuck fantasys!
Back to restraint. I'm a all or nothing type person, no middle ground with me. Middle ground is for people with no heart. I put all of my worst qualities out for the world to see. Its my test and my defence mechanism, if someone takes the time to sift threw all the bullshit I may let them in. I really excel at not letting people into my inner world. Once I do let someone in I give everything and more, i've been told I give to much to girls I love....no restraint again. I feel its only right to give everything that I am, I wouldn't feel right holding back. I'm just looking for that one, that when I give everything to her she dosen't chew me up and spit me out...I do enjoy the ride though, even all the bad ones
Searching for a relationship that is perfect in it's imperfection, beautiful in all it's insanity and madness. Living and dying, laughing and crying. A love that not even the bonds of death itself keep apart.
.....I need to stop dreaming so damn much. They did hire a new girl at work and shes very cute, but has a boyfriend and seems happy. I'm not into ruining anyones happiness, its to hard to find.
"Climb up real high, now forever fall" NIN
Update
Just found this....I can now blame my no restraint on astrology
Sagittarius = November 23rd to December 21st
Sagittarius is a masculine, mutable Fire sign ruled by Jupiter. It is the ninth sign on the zodiac wheel, directly opposite Gemini, and is named for the constellation Sagittarius (the archer), which crashes and burns behind the Sun at this time of year. On the darkside, this makes you a reckless, tactless, obnoxious oaf, with a morbid fear of restraint and an addiction to losing your shirt.
Speaking of this site, i do love it. All the girls are beautiful, and i've made a few friends here, I thank you. You have given my dead soul some hope that this whole world isn't as fucked as I think it is sometimes. SG has become an addiction for me, I know i'm not alone in that, but it dosen't sit well with me. For lack of a better word, i'm not a starfucker. People are people no matter if their on TV, in a band, or naked on a website. Truely only a few of the girls have reached a level of fame to be called a star. I guess it isn't setting well with me because for a second I think... wouldn't it be cool to meet this person or that person....Then I think....I'm an asshole, over half the people I meet think so, what would make this meeting any diffrent ? why waste my time or theirs ?
Ok done feeling sorry for myself That was quick huh Fuck fantasys!
Back to restraint. I'm a all or nothing type person, no middle ground with me. Middle ground is for people with no heart. I put all of my worst qualities out for the world to see. Its my test and my defence mechanism, if someone takes the time to sift threw all the bullshit I may let them in. I really excel at not letting people into my inner world. Once I do let someone in I give everything and more, i've been told I give to much to girls I love....no restraint again. I feel its only right to give everything that I am, I wouldn't feel right holding back. I'm just looking for that one, that when I give everything to her she dosen't chew me up and spit me out...I do enjoy the ride though, even all the bad ones
Searching for a relationship that is perfect in it's imperfection, beautiful in all it's insanity and madness. Living and dying, laughing and crying. A love that not even the bonds of death itself keep apart.
.....I need to stop dreaming so damn much. They did hire a new girl at work and shes very cute, but has a boyfriend and seems happy. I'm not into ruining anyones happiness, its to hard to find.
"Climb up real high, now forever fall" NIN
Update
Just found this....I can now blame my no restraint on astrology
Sagittarius = November 23rd to December 21st
Sagittarius is a masculine, mutable Fire sign ruled by Jupiter. It is the ninth sign on the zodiac wheel, directly opposite Gemini, and is named for the constellation Sagittarius (the archer), which crashes and burns behind the Sun at this time of year. On the darkside, this makes you a reckless, tactless, obnoxious oaf, with a morbid fear of restraint and an addiction to losing your shirt.
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cureelise:
cureelise:
get yer arse online soon - I miss chatting with u 
and I didn't find u to be an asshole - I found u to be real interesting and fun to chat with . 
and I didn't find u to be an asshole - I found u to be real interesting and fun to chat with .