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Wednesday Apr 20, 2005

Apr 20, 2005
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what do you do.

what do you do when you care about someone enough to want to let them do whatever it will take to make them happy. but when you're so painfully human that you don't want them to walk out of your life forever.

when you know that this person will never be truly satisfied until they find their destiny. until they get to the end of the path they are currently on?

what do you do when there's no one to be mad at. when there's no one doing any wrong, but you're still sick to your stomach all the time.

what do you do when you have to watch someone you care about walk away from you forever, so they can march forever into the battleground of self-defeatism and potential heartbreak.

all of you who are lucky enough to have love in your life. to have someone who will look over at you and smile because they love the glint in your eye, or the smile creeping over in the corner of your mouth, Please take this moment to be happy. and feel loved.

nothing in the world is as devestating a force as lonliness

appreciate those who cherish you
cherish those who appreciate you

i am lost right now. i am torn because i don't even know what the right thing to do is. And if i did, i can't promise i would even do the right thing at all.

what i want seems inconsequential at this point, but i existed in a place of peace an acceptance of the new version of life that fate had ushered in for me.

here i am at the crossroads, lost and naked. I must do the right thing. But what is that?

_mith

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jadednerdgirl:
I think I went down the wrong turn at the crossroad. got mixed up and ended up at the same crossroad again. I get amazingly lost. so hopefully I will go the right way this time
Apr 20, 2005
coops:
Wow.
This journal really makes me think.
It hits home.
Apr 21, 2005

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