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hey

i'm reaching out to the only people left. i need help i don't know where else to turn.

My girlfriend of three years left me a month ago. Since then i have had a burning in the pit of my stomach that simply will not go away. I can not deal with this anymore.

It's not a fear that i will always be alone. It is that i hate what i have lost. I took so much pride in her, and I love her so mmuch. I don't know what to do. My life was so perfect, and Now it just seems to be fallign apart. I need it all back, i feel like a am suffocating without it, but the parts of me in the front of my mind know it wont be coming back... This was not one of those situations where i am sad now but before i had had all these things i didnt like or didnt have. It was perfect then and i knew it. I Just didnt always act like it. I could not have asked for more personal compatability or comfort. I hate life without her.

I can't do this, but i don't have any other option.

I just needed to vent.

_mith