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Fort Wayne, Indiana

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Life Lessons Learned the Hard Way.

Sep 24, 2014
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I'm sorry I have been MIA for so long. I have had some major personal issues the last year or so. I have been desperately trying to remember who I was as a person. I forgot how to feel anything towards anyone and I was constantly bringing myself down because I believed I didn't deserve anything better than that. It is so incredibly difficult to take back 3 years of losing yourself due to someone wanting you to be who you aren't. I have made a pact of sorts to myself to do things that make me happy. I am over telling myself I am not good enough for things I am passionate for. I am also tired of hearing that I am not good enough from others. I am going to travel more. And I am going to start singing. I am going to continue having photos taken, even if it is only for fun. Just because there is passion, doesn't mean it needs to be always shared with the world. I am going to meet new and interesting people. People who will allow me to be me. I am going to be open to others and to situations, but also not be so naive. I am going to be loved and love in return.

With so so so much love to you all,

Essence. <3

Photo credit: Bill DeMichele

Photo credit: Joshua Saltsman

Photo credit: Bill DeMichele

Photo credit: Joshua Saltsman

Photo credit: Joshua Saltsman

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sr_55:
If you're ever in Indiana and want to try the stage, let me know!  Love to get people up there with me to share their stuff!
Jul 15, 2015
dragonlion:
Welcome back. Exciting that you are. 
Dec 31, 2015

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