sick of myself. sick of everything thats in my head.
i'm not sure what i need to do but drastic actions must be taken.
on a more positive note, every monday night at my school we get guest speakers and they've been really amazing the past three weeks that i've been in school. tonights lecture featured the first female lecturers. they kicked ass. its so intimidating because i'm three weeks into advertising and was incredibly inspired by the way they've lived their lives and their art and their careers and its just like fuck will i ever feel like i'm moving in the right direction instead of just sitting down and pulling a towel over my head.
i think thats what i've done for the past ten years....
sat on the ground with a giant towel over my head.
i also realize that i use the words 'aimless' and 'awkward' way too frequently in conversations and i think i've decided to adopt them as my personal mottos. no wait i haven't, its just that they seem to be overriding themes.
must buy a thesaurus. just kidding i have one.
i'm not sure what i need to do but drastic actions must be taken.
on a more positive note, every monday night at my school we get guest speakers and they've been really amazing the past three weeks that i've been in school. tonights lecture featured the first female lecturers. they kicked ass. its so intimidating because i'm three weeks into advertising and was incredibly inspired by the way they've lived their lives and their art and their careers and its just like fuck will i ever feel like i'm moving in the right direction instead of just sitting down and pulling a towel over my head.
i think thats what i've done for the past ten years....
sat on the ground with a giant towel over my head.
i also realize that i use the words 'aimless' and 'awkward' way too frequently in conversations and i think i've decided to adopt them as my personal mottos. no wait i haven't, its just that they seem to be overriding themes.
must buy a thesaurus. just kidding i have one.
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bob_dobalina:
those guest speakers are meant to motivate and inspire rather than make you feel small and insignificant. don't think for a second that those same speakers weren't (or aren't) saddled by the same doubts as you.
zenzero:
Not that I dont think you are special.. but Im sure everybody feels that way sometimes.. at least I like to pretend they do, it seems to help. Although rationalizion is always a handy tool I like to use it to turn the mirrors around when I am trying to find myself..