esmee

today i feel shattered, fragmented and gasping for breath.
i was so hungover this morning my hands were shaking, trembling really for hours. i don't know why i felt so horrible...i only had one glass of wine...oops i mean bottle. and it was a small one too...

i have no weed and i'm finding passing the time at home alone almost insufferable. i think thats probably a good indication i shouldn't smoke but...i need something to take away this anxiety and misery or at least make me forget about being lonely and bored for a little bit. my skin is crawling and its uncomfortable. i sigh a lot.
i'm a barrel of fun.