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dunno.. moving in with someone always seems to set you up for a fall. the dog is the kicker for me b/c dogs have a nasty habit of knocking bongs over.

..
you mind is strong
your query is wise
question him directly
put your mind at ease...
hesitation may be instinct
listening to your heart dosent mean ignore your mind

Yeah, I know someone that sucks more then your EX, FUCKIN MINE!!!!!!!!
What school do you go too?

hey baby, the visit w/ the girl went really well. we talked a couple of times on the phone, very breifly, like 1 minute or so before we met. then we met and decided on a resturaunt. when we were walking there she grabed my hand to hold it right away, which i liked alot, but was a bit surprised. it was like an hour into our meal and she asks me if she can kiss me , which i though was really cool of her to give me the green light. so we made out a bunch of times in a some upscale resturant in from of a bunch of loosers w/ suits and dress's. the waiter was kind of a stiff and i could tell he wanted us out of there. so we went out for a couple of drinks and then back to my hotel room. we had really good sex. i was tottally happy. the only thing that i am kinda bummed about is that she was she really didnt talk much. she was sooo shy and submissive, and she didnt't have that much to say and she never really asked any questions. at dinner i told her that i would fly her to new york and she was happy about that. she never gave me her # but she has mine. she never called me but she wrote me this one sentece email asking when i was going to fly her out. i thought that was kinda weak. i think that she is probably the shyest person i have ever met. she was soo timid, but still sexy. i am afraid if i fly her out for a weekend or something, we would run out of things to say right away?

i dont know.

hows the new boy?

whats your news year resolution?

merry new year!

i'm a dumb ass

[Edited on Jan 03, 2004 2:34PM]

grunted like a pig? thats kinda odd. i didnt know you were into half pig half men, you know....pig men?
some one has to tell the stupid jokes around here, and it looks like i have taken the job.

hows it goin w/ the new boy in your life?

hey i just wanted to say merry x mas and i hope i wake up tomorrow morning and find you under neath my christmas tree w/ nothing on but a bow wrapped around your tiny little waist and little card tied to your big toe that says "to anthony, merry chistmas."

hey baby,
the appoitment went well, lots of pain though. after that me and MADAMEX met for the first time and went to dinner and drinks. she's a real sweet girl.

i am in chicago but im flying home in a couple of hours and i will try and get a pic up when i get home.

glad to hear about you and your boy. are you guys spending new years together?

[Edited on Dec 28, 2003 11:52AM]

Jealous on so many levels....
You Go Girrrrlllllll!!!

Choo! Choo!

Im at least glad you had enough free time to leave me a little note.. I think I am bad at making friends.. the good news, I decided I dont have a problem keeping them... so I guess that gives me something to look forward to...

thanks for the words of encouragement...
and I agree.... people should just be real or go home and stop calling bullsheiite like they dont know what they want.. If you dont know what you want, call me when you do...or dont call at all.. because Im not going to make any decisions for you you you.. jerk.. thats called just being a bad friend....

but then again, I dont have any friends down here... yet!
but when I do find some.. they will be the coolest friends
like you.. you have raised the bar o' friendship!... and I know its easier said then done..
(everything is, except for supercalifragalisticexpieallidocious.. thats about equal)
but use your free time to free yo' mind..
free time isnt for thinking
its for dreaming...
but what do I know.. Im guilty of the same damn thing...
peace inside&out

hey, youre tottally smokin hot. that profile pic...fagitaboutit!

he should be nervous. dont worry about it, youre a total catch. good luk.

It's fucking sad but I still see my friends doing 'the nod' on a daily basis, except now it's in pill form. I used to do ALOT of acid back in high school and some 'dust' but I never got into the hard-core addictive shit. Almost every girl I've known has either been into meth/coke at one time. You LOVE it!

So how is the super fake world of South Beach treating you?
How many guys on rollerblades wearing only cut-off jean shorts did you see today?

you never told us what it is that you want but you cant have? sounds like you did college up the right way! what do you do in sunny fla now that you are all grown up? how's it going w/ the boy?
never did meth myself, but i had my dependancy problems in my early 20's w/ yayoo. dont do it any more. i am only able to sleep 3 or 4 hours a night w/ out doin it, if i were to do it again fagetaboutit. . i have never did h but would really like to try it some time. as you get to be my age you dont really get chances to try new drugs anymore.

so how are things going w/ the new boy? i went on the best date of my life about a week ago. first off, we talked for 3 hours the first night on the phone. she asked me out for that week. so we agreed on thurday. meanwhile during the week we were emailing each other back and forth all week. so we go out thursday night and it was the best first date of my life. awsome conversation, we had tapas at this bar. both got a bit buzzed. she kissed me first. and i when i say kiss i mean a full out tounge kiss. it was hot. i totally melted. and then we proceded to kiss a bunch of other times after that. she then asks me out for saturday night. i said sure. so the day after our first date i email her saying that i had a great time and i am looking forward to satuday night. i dont hear from her. i was thinkin that was kinda strange. so i call her on satuday afternoon and she says that shes sick. i believed her because she sounded kinda sick. but she said lets go out tuesday. so tuesdaY morning i email her and i dont hear from her until thurdsay and she writes back saying that she met some other guy and that she thinks that theres a possiblilty of a realtionship w/ him. so i guess im out.

oh well. luckily theres 3 girls to 1 guy in manhattan.

so what site are you using? i was using never.com for a while and then i just started using lava life. the girls on lava life are so lame thought. booorrrringgg

hope it all works out for you!

anthony

i think most of what i write that doesn't suck is about LA.. probably because my favorite writers use los angeles as a setting and i can't help but be influenced by them. i wonder if that means that if i move away, would i cease to have anything interesting to write about?

how was that date on thursday? did you get a tingle in your naughty place? its been a while since i had anything as subtle as a tingle. normally they just reach in my pants.

Yes, thank god for porn
and thank god for girls that masturbate!!

i was just journal surfing and thought i'd drop in my two cents.
i always find that a change of season makes me yearn for the comfort of another. especially autumn and winter. it's snuggle weather and snuggling alone, or even with a super great pet, can sometimes be unfufilling.
then again, i've always thought it was up to a woman when it came to getting laid. most guys seems to be always trying so it just takes a willing mate.
regardless, i'd hate to see anyone lower thier standards for immediate carnal gratification; but then again, we all do it.
but hey, good luck with it all!

I just found out via mail that I live in "Area 7" for the
St. Lucie Nuclear Power Plant evacuation plan.
thats great...

So you got into your school!? kick ass!! Did the moving get all done? Painted anything yet??

hey! thanksgiving was cool but my mom always feeds and feeds and feeds me when i'm back with the fam. i really gots to work off some of these new squishy layers.

have you started to settle into the new pad?

Hows the move going?
How are you doing?
Whats Up?

consider this some positive waves headed your way...
wuuum, wuuum, wuuum, wuuum, wuuum, wuuum
wuuum, wuuum, wuuum, wuuum, wuuum, wuuum

ok, so the cake was crunchy, but did it taste good!?