escapegoat

i wont be happy untill everything is homogenized.......all stray ends executed and extinguished........all catagories grouped and channelled.........if i dont get what i expect, ill ,ill......ill............um.......cut loose of a sterile homogenized predictable shit

everything is just so fucking wonderful

redbone in the city
you got no time for love
you got no time for feelings

growth comes with time.......
if yer open to it.....

change is those who are willing....

how many people want different but are unwilling to change.....????

most

everyone wants bigger,better,badder
but are unwilling to let go of old ways......

its easier to point fingers, shuffle blame, curl up in a ball......

im guilty of all of the above.......

but there is something to be said for...
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cute eyes
flowing hair
delicious freckles
sweet voice
zooming mind

but didya see those tits?

yo! lemme ask you a question!

so as i look around these portlanders diaries, everyone is bitching about not working and being broke

well.......im really fucking broke and have been working everyday......wet, cold, slippin and slidin........and broke......negative broke........after my new years bender, i put myself into negative land........i think its a new world record for me.......self destruction at it finest........near 48 hrs of chemical punishment.....acts reckless abandon............loads of money shot........years off...
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oh boy.......its still winter wonderland outside
snowed abunch ysterday......then freezen rain/ice pellets last night.......i thought it wouldve thawed out more by now
it makes the day fun........special......last night i grabbed a customers jeep and was driving it like a mad man........good fun..............sssshhhhhh......dont tell the customer

c'mon you lazy mother fucker....
what the fuck does it take?.....
how can you do just bare minimum or nothing at fucking all.....
you are the problem.....
change it you half baked fuck.

last night, a friend performed reiki on me........to help heal and possibly get me off of this chemical roller coaster......i gave her hands third degree burns.........she gave me some things to think about