escapegoat

as i reflect
it terrifies me
i slow down long enough
i feel like the corpse is shit
lived too quickly
punished
chemical battery
i hurt
everything aching
soul too
lost little boy
terrified
man grits his teeth
like a real mother fucker
i got that down to the point of scaring mother fuckers
i begin to turn
like a nice gentle sweep
like a motor boat or a plane
laying over sideways
puke and blood running from the mouth
eyes wide open and lifeless
lips purple
skin cold
weezing little gurgles for breathe
not quite dead
i sure am glad jerry is
jezus
although having cute hippie hitch hikin philosophers everywhere is alright
but that music horrible
and theyd say the same about mine
many have
i remember i scared me at first
something so brutal and tortured
caught me like a deer in the headlght
its so beautiful
the bug said as he flew into
bzzzzzzzzzzzzzzttt.......thud
i had a hot fudge sundae tonight
figured id rubbed yer nose in it
like a bad dog
why'd ya piss on the carpet?
smack ya across the head
huh?.....why'd ya piss on the carpet?
cuz it felt good
thats it
im gunna start pissing on everything i own
mmmmmmm
what do you want to do tonight?
i dont know?
well i was thinkin
maybe you could come over
and i close all the windows
and id turn the heat all the way up
we could sit on the sofa
and feel the wet spot sqish below
and then just gaze around talking
drinking wine
taking in every breathe taking moment of the
heated smells of urine
tommorrow
i need to get my bike back
eat right
ride
relax some more
purge
vent
release