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It would be an understatement to say that I'm not very good at relationships. I mean I'm really,really not good at them.

There are far too many reasons why I'm not to go into on here. The most basic one is that I simply don't know how to go about having one. I was never taught that and my own relationships haven't exactly furthered my education on how to have a healthy one.

Generally they end up with me being some kind of emotional whore. Where I'm trading sex for some kind of love or attention. Not good.

I'm so stuck in that relationship pattern that even when someone comes along who doesn't want that .. I still try and instigate it, because I don't know what else to do.

Of course trying to explain that to people is not something I've ever really wanted to have to do .. it's never easy to come to terms with shit like that.

But this time I have and .. we shall see.