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After the very boring, yet medically informative blog from yesterday, I decided to write another blog. This one will pertain more to my life and experiences than to what I have dealt with medically. So hopefully, this one will not bore you as much and will be a little more entertaining to read. As always, I suggest you grab a snack because of you are fully aware by now that I ramble incessantly. It is really bad character flaw that I am trying to work on, without much success. So this is just a warning. This blog could flip flop from time to time, but I promise, as always I will get back on topic. *giggles*

So this weekend it is the Easter holiday in the United States. I normally enjoy holidays for the most part, except for Thanksgiving. By now you are thinking I am pretty strange, right? Who hates Thanksgiving? Well, I think part of my hatred for the holiday has to do with the fact that it involves eating. I suffered from Anorexia for many years during high school and college and still have times in which being around tons of food makes me uneasy. Then on top of the Anorexia making food unappealing, I also had the lap-band procedure almost four years ago and after having the procedure I was on a liquid diet for six weeks and then after that had to limit my portions dramatically. I am talking measuring foods out in ounces and cups. Fixing a meal for the first couple of years was hell and made me dislike food even more. To add more problems to my plate, I also developed diabetes due to being overweight. Anyone knows that being on a diabetic diet sucks ass and adding the lap-band diet to it made eating almost impossible. Now however, I do not have to stick so much to the stringent lap-band diet and my diabetes isn't as severe. Basically, I just avoids lots of sugars and count carbohydrates a lot when grocery shopping or going out to eat.

See I told you that I would get off topic, I started out a blog about Easter, which was my original intention and somehow I got on a completely different topic. So I am going to back track now and get back to the writing about the upcoming Easter holiday.

Growing up as a child, we were taught to believe in the fictitious characters of the Easter Bunny and Santa Claus and I think every child should believe in these things. It increases a child's imagination and creativity. So I was glad my parents did that for us. However, unlike most parents I am sure we stopped getting gifts from the Easter Bunny and Santa around 11 years old. This even included birthdays. Yes, you heard me correctly. I did not receive any gifts from my parents for any holiday or birthday after I turned 11. This sucked. You always heard about your friends getting all this stuff, some of which are still getting these things and they are in their 30's. I never understood why my parents did this. Maybe, they wanted to teach us that we had to earn rewards and gifts and that they aren't just handed to you? So due this fact, I do not really look forward to holidays as far as me receiving a gift. I do however, give them to others. I love buying for others and generally spend no money on myself. It is rate if I do and someone normally has to force me, because I feel guilty and think that someone else should be given something instead of me splurging on myself. This could be an ideal drilled into my head by parents. To be honest, I really do not know why I am this way.

Concerning Easter this year however, I am having mixed emotions. For one, this will be the first Easter I will not be with my family. Granted most of my family is crap, but I do have those that I still love and respect and in they do me in return. Basically, the only family I really have any contact with is my younger brother, his girlfriend, and his daughter, Lacy, who will be 4 next month. Yes, I did meet new relatives this past weekend and I am sure I will start celebrating things with them soon, but for now all I have is Pezmaster and his family, who are awesome in every way. They bought me birthday presents this past October, Christmas presents in December, and I even got candy from Pezmaster's mom for Valentine's Day! Of course, I got stuff from Pezmaster as well. He made this past Valentine's Day the best one I had ever had. He truly is the greatest boyfriend and I love him more than life itself.

The thing that saddens me about Easter approaching is that I will not get to be with those few family members I do care about. I will miss Lacy hunting Easter eggs in the yard after staying up late and decorating them in the kitchen. I will miss seeing her opening her Easter basket, which I helped fill with candy and toys. It just really makes me want to cry thinking about it.

It isn't all bad though. Now that I am with Pezmaster, I get to celebrate Easter with his family. His mother bought each of us a chocolate rabbit and she knew especially that I preferred white chocolate. She is my new mom in a way. I also get to decorate and hide eggs with Pezmaster and his his four year old little boy, Brandon! Pezmaster and I also get to make Brandon a basket, since he still believes in the Easter Bunny. I plan to never do him like my parents. He will always get gifts on holidays. I do not care if he is 80. So at least this makes me smile!

So now that everyone is depressed, I am going to post a picture of myself showing just how glad I am that it is finally getting warm in West Virginia. I am able to eat Popsicles on a regular basis now to cool off! YAY! So, I hope you enjoy the picture.

POPSICLE


And in the spirit of Easter, I decided to update my wishlist. Maybe, Pezmaster or even the Easter Bunny will see something on it and get it for me? *giggles* A girl can dream, right?

MY WISHLIST: OR MORE LIKE DREAM LIST


Much Love,
Jen