Hey, SG Land! I am going to make this blog short compared to what I usually write. I am feeling a bit under the weather due to some new medication I started today. Hopefully, I will be able to write a more updated blog and catch up on the blogs of all of you guys later.
I do want however, to mention a couple of such a things. I have a new been a person to have a great self-esteem. I do not think I am great in any aspect. I am so not used to people saying how kind I am or how beautiful they think I am. I am not even used to compliments from my boyfriend, Pezmaster, who loves to give them often. I often chuckle thinking that people think of me as "beautiful." I do not maybe it was because it was how I was raised. We never got positive reinforcement or encouragement to succeed in life. However, I believe I manage to come out as a decent, respectful, and humble person. I enjoy making others smile before myself. I would give anyone the shirt off my back. I think ultimately sometimes I am too nice for my own good. Nonetheless, I think all the goodness I spread, whether it be through words or charity, in the end I will come out on top. I do not need material things to make me happy. I just need to be happy with what life has gave me and so far, I am. I just wanted to thank all of you who have been so kind to me in return. I only say something if I mean it. I try to treat others like I would like to be treated in return that it is all. So if I know I made you smile, then that in itself makes me smile too! I love all my friends in the SG community!
Secondly, I wanted to say that today is a very special day to me. Ten months ago today, I met the love of my life, Kenny, or as many of you know him, Pezmaster. I spent 18 years in a relationship in which I was very unhappy and was basically settling because I did not feel I could get any better. That is how low I think of myself. I endured 18 years of no affection and emotional and physical abuse. Finally, last summer I got the courage to end the relationship not intending to ever find someone again. I did not think it was possible. However, due to the encouragement of some people I tried a dating site. Within weeks, I started talking to Pezmaster. Little did I know, that 10 months later I would completely and utterly in love. I spent years thinking what love was, when in fact I had no idea until now. I have found the love of my life and I hope we continue to share a wonderful life together.
Much Love,
Jen
I do want however, to mention a couple of such a things. I have a new been a person to have a great self-esteem. I do not think I am great in any aspect. I am so not used to people saying how kind I am or how beautiful they think I am. I am not even used to compliments from my boyfriend, Pezmaster, who loves to give them often. I often chuckle thinking that people think of me as "beautiful." I do not maybe it was because it was how I was raised. We never got positive reinforcement or encouragement to succeed in life. However, I believe I manage to come out as a decent, respectful, and humble person. I enjoy making others smile before myself. I would give anyone the shirt off my back. I think ultimately sometimes I am too nice for my own good. Nonetheless, I think all the goodness I spread, whether it be through words or charity, in the end I will come out on top. I do not need material things to make me happy. I just need to be happy with what life has gave me and so far, I am. I just wanted to thank all of you who have been so kind to me in return. I only say something if I mean it. I try to treat others like I would like to be treated in return that it is all. So if I know I made you smile, then that in itself makes me smile too! I love all my friends in the SG community!
Secondly, I wanted to say that today is a very special day to me. Ten months ago today, I met the love of my life, Kenny, or as many of you know him, Pezmaster. I spent 18 years in a relationship in which I was very unhappy and was basically settling because I did not feel I could get any better. That is how low I think of myself. I endured 18 years of no affection and emotional and physical abuse. Finally, last summer I got the courage to end the relationship not intending to ever find someone again. I did not think it was possible. However, due to the encouragement of some people I tried a dating site. Within weeks, I started talking to Pezmaster. Little did I know, that 10 months later I would completely and utterly in love.
I spent years thinking what love was, when in fact I had no idea until now. I have found the love of my life and I hope we continue to share a wonderful life together.
Much Love,
Jen
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jaxy:
I never had any plans on going better but those plugs are soooo cute and my friend gave them to me so I may go for it.