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So love is like woah! Yeah. I know I quoted a song. A song that I really do not even like but anyhow. What is the low down in my world. Well, I have decided to publish a book of my poetry. Eeeek! I am a little frightened. Thanks to a friend of my wonderful boyfriend, Pezmaster, I am finally dusting off the old notebooks and showing my writing to the world. This friend also directed me to a company that helps you design, publish, and market your work all in one complete boom! That is right up my alley. I can not draw or anything and I am not business savvy, so I will just leave all that junk those people. I just hope it sells. Pezmaster's friend or as we call her Julie *giggles*, is a published novelist. I just recently bought one of her books to peruse myself. It is a vampire fiction so I am excited to dive into it. I eat that stuff up. OOooh Vampires. I just hope I have as good as luck with my poetry as she does with her material. I will be sure to let you guys know once the book is available for purchase. At least to those of you who are interested. I am scared as hell myself.

In other news, August 12th was Pezmaster's and I two month anniversary. So yay! I am not good with dates, but surprisingly I remembered. I love that boy. He gives me a reason to smile and I could not ask for nothing more in this world. So I hope our good luck continues. I tend to jinx things. So I will just enjoy each moment as it comes and realize that right now i am the luckiest girl in the world. Granted, we may not get to see each other that often or do everything we hope to do for each other, but all that matters is that we know we love each other. I do not know doubt that. I do not plan to. I hope he realizes this. He has made my world a better place just by being in it. He is perfect and I would change nothing about him.

As for myself however, I know I am not perfect. Many bring this to my attention. I spent last night enjoying many Michael Cera movies. You see, he is my new obsession. I heart him. I just tend to fall for the underdog. I love a gamer, a nerd, a geek, an anime watcher, someone who doesn't follow the societal cue. I can't help it. Seeing the movie "Paper Heart," made me realize something though. Love is about acceptance. You do not have to be perfect. All that matters is that you love completely. You respect the one you love. You accept their shortcomings and support them in what they lack and if they ask and only if then help them improve. I do want to improve myself. I am not happy with the way Jen is right now. I will admit this all of the internet. There are things about myself that has caused me to lose my smile. Do not take this incorrectly. I smile. I have a permanent smile, thanks to Pezmaster, but I need to find the Jen smile. The smile I need when he isn't there. My smile. So last night after my hours of Micheal Cera submersion I made a list of things about me that need to change to make my frown turn upside down. See below...

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So there you have it a New Year's resolution a few months early. Hey, I am not superstitious, Now, I am off to work on my book some more and do some school work. I start back next week after my time off due to the mini stroke. Wish me luck people. I have a lot ahead of me. Although, there is a new MIchael Cera movie released as of now so...WOOT!!!!!!!!!!!!.