So it appears as if I have been slacking. I was at the point of updating this thing really regularly and enjoying it quite thoroughly. I love keeping a blog I always have. You get a creative outlet and people get to give their thoughts and opinions as to what they think as to what you have been up to. It is like you are having a big huge family dinner without having to deal with those annoying family members that you didn't want to invite but were forced to out of guilt. *giggles* With that said..Can someone please pass the mashed potatoes?
An update? Hmmm. It is Sunday. I think. I have been in sort of a fog lately. Thanks to all of the medications from the infections and complications from the stroke, so it is a wonder I am even awake. Since my last entry not a lot as happened. I am making more of an effort to separate myself from the evil parental units and make a better life for Pezmaster and I. I started a new bank account and transferred my Social Security to it, complete with a password of course. Also I now started no longer carrying cash. This means my parents no longer have access to my money. For those who are unaware. They have stolen thousands of dollars from me in the past. This is so not cool. Obviously, Considering the fact, that it is I who have supported the entire family since I have been sixteen. In addition, on the 3rd I am purchasing my first vehicle. I can not drive so, Pezmaster gets to be my driver. YAY! I do not mind. The car will be ours. It will be in both of our names and both of us will be making payments and paying on the insurance. As long as everything benefits making our lives better, then I am happy.
I am in love and life couldn't be better.
He is the best thing that has ever happened to me. He takes such good care of me. He knows how to help me when something isn't accessible. He knows how to apply my pain patches. He puts on my braces, which is something even I haven't even mastered. Those things are like a Rubik cube or something *giggles* He offers to buy me stuff all the time and I refuse. I do not like being spoiled. I am not used to it. To me, just making sure I am taken care of properly and truly showing me love is more than enough. He doesn't realize that in my opinion, money means nothing. I grew up without it. I do not need expensive gifts. In all honesty, money is not even in my vocabulary. Yes, it is nice. You need it for food or to pay bills. I would not complain if I had it. However, I would prefer if someone gave me a post-it not with a heart on it or a rock that you saw as we walked down the road holding hands. I do not care if I lived in a mud puddle versus a mansion with the person I was in love with. As long as we were together. That is the important thing. Money does not buy happiness. Love does. At least in my reality.
When I am upset, he says something so random it makes me giggle. It is just the little things.Take for example, I sometimes have a hard time dealing with the fact that I have a disability. This is for lack of a better word "normal." One night I was upset because my mother (keep in mind this is my mother I am talking about) called me "abnormal." I went to bed very upset, crying even. I awoke the next morning to a text on my phone from none other than Pezmaster. I will not quote it because it was awhile ago, but it said something to fact that "I love you and you will be never be disabled in my eyes." Knowing that someone who isn't disabled would say something like that just at the right moment, not to mention someone who loves me on top of it, makes me absolutely LOVE everything about that man. UNDERSTAND? No matter his faults, he is perfect. I do not care who says. To me he is. I will never feel any differently. I hope he knows it too! I try my best to tell him every chance I get. Ok, enough about my love. It is enough mush for anyone to start gagging. *giggles*
Back to the update. I went to the doctor on Friday at the request of none another than Pezmaster, since my feet where still swollen. They figured out what caused the stroke. Are you ready for this people? It was my birth control. I was on Seasonique! So girls. I do not recommend this at all. Yes, there is risk of stroke with any oral birth control, but this and Yaz is esecially dangerous. If I would have know, then I would have never have taken it! Of course, I have other risk factors that contributed, but it still never should have been prescribed to me in the first place. So now, I have to make a big decision. As a disabled female, I have the option of a voluntary hysterectomy. I am 28 years old. Being on the medications I am on, such a morphine for pain as well as other strong pain medications, and muscle relaxers, carry a child would be difficult for me. Not by any means impossible, because I am able to get pregnant, just if I did I would have to stop all the medication that make me comfortable and be on bed rest the entire time. I would have to REALLY want a child severely. At this point in my life however, I do not want children. I love those around me, such as my niece Lacy, Garrett,Victoria, and Anna (My best friend Andrea's children), and Brandon (Pezmaster's little boy). So this doesn't seem like an awful idea. I can always adopt. Pezmaster and I do not particularly want any other children so this would be fine for us. If for some reason, we didn't work out, then adoption would work with someone else as well. If another person couldn't deal with that idea, then in my opinion they would not be worth being with. I have always had this dream anyhow of adopting an older child and giving them the opportunity of going to school such as college and stuff. Older children are rarely adopted. People always want babies. There are millions of older children that need homes, so this would benefit me and a homeless adolescent as well.
So this doesn't have to be a negative situation and I am trying not to think of it as one!
In other news, I have taken a three week break from Graduate school to get my health back in order. I also switched my major. Instead of focuses on Special Education, I am know doing Distance Learning. I was offered a position as college professor at an online university once I graduate. WOOT! That means I can work from home at my laptop in my pajamas or maybe even naked!
Can we say hot for teacher? RAWR!
Oh yeah, just for fun I thought I would share something I have been enjoying all weekend. I really despise the way most popular music has been turning out here recently. With some few exceptions. Pezmaster has really got me listening to MC Chris, who I absolutely love. He is a white rapper who often does parody type songs of popular music. Not always though. Not to mention is currently working on a song with one of the coolest directors of all time Kevin Smith, you know from Jay and Silent Boy! Anyhow, he did a song making fun of Kesha's "My Love is Your Drug, " which I hate!
(PLEASE DON'T ATTACK ME!) Anyhow, it is so funny. Check it out. it is called "I Heart Drugs!" I so freaking love it! Enjoy!
And for those of you who also happen to love Jason Mraz, such as myself, He is coming to the Clay Center in Charleston, WV in August! WOOOOO! I am so excited. Anyone want to go? I want to go so bad. I may just go by myself. I am sure that Pezmaster doesn't like Jason Mraz. I can hear him making fun of him already. *giggles* It is all good though. We all have different tastes in music, clothes, television, and books. It is what makes the world go round!
Much love....*hugs* Until later.....
An update? Hmmm. It is Sunday. I think. I have been in sort of a fog lately. Thanks to all of the medications from the infections and complications from the stroke, so it is a wonder I am even awake. Since my last entry not a lot as happened. I am making more of an effort to separate myself from the evil parental units and make a better life for Pezmaster and I. I started a new bank account and transferred my Social Security to it, complete with a password of course. Also I now started no longer carrying cash. This means my parents no longer have access to my money. For those who are unaware. They have stolen thousands of dollars from me in the past. This is so not cool. Obviously, Considering the fact, that it is I who have supported the entire family since I have been sixteen. In addition, on the 3rd I am purchasing my first vehicle. I can not drive so, Pezmaster gets to be my driver. YAY! I do not mind. The car will be ours. It will be in both of our names and both of us will be making payments and paying on the insurance. As long as everything benefits making our lives better, then I am happy.
I am in love and life couldn't be better.
He is the best thing that has ever happened to me. He takes such good care of me. He knows how to help me when something isn't accessible. He knows how to apply my pain patches. He puts on my braces, which is something even I haven't even mastered. Those things are like a Rubik cube or something *giggles* He offers to buy me stuff all the time and I refuse. I do not like being spoiled. I am not used to it. To me, just making sure I am taken care of properly and truly showing me love is more than enough. He doesn't realize that in my opinion, money means nothing. I grew up without it. I do not need expensive gifts. In all honesty, money is not even in my vocabulary. Yes, it is nice. You need it for food or to pay bills. I would not complain if I had it. However, I would prefer if someone gave me a post-it not with a heart on it or a rock that you saw as we walked down the road holding hands. I do not care if I lived in a mud puddle versus a mansion with the person I was in love with. As long as we were together. That is the important thing. Money does not buy happiness. Love does. At least in my reality.
When I am upset, he says something so random it makes me giggle. It is just the little things.Take for example, I sometimes have a hard time dealing with the fact that I have a disability. This is for lack of a better word "normal." One night I was upset because my mother (keep in mind this is my mother I am talking about) called me "abnormal." I went to bed very upset, crying even. I awoke the next morning to a text on my phone from none other than Pezmaster. I will not quote it because it was awhile ago, but it said something to fact that "I love you and you will be never be disabled in my eyes." Knowing that someone who isn't disabled would say something like that just at the right moment, not to mention someone who loves me on top of it, makes me absolutely LOVE everything about that man. UNDERSTAND? No matter his faults, he is perfect. I do not care who says. To me he is. I will never feel any differently. I hope he knows it too! I try my best to tell him every chance I get.
Ok, enough about my love. It is enough mush for anyone to start gagging. *giggles*
Back to the update. I went to the doctor on Friday at the request of none another than Pezmaster, since my feet where still swollen. They figured out what caused the stroke. Are you ready for this people? It was my birth control. I was on Seasonique! So girls. I do not recommend this at all. Yes, there is risk of stroke with any oral birth control, but this and Yaz is esecially dangerous. If I would have know, then I would have never have taken it! Of course, I have other risk factors that contributed, but it still never should have been prescribed to me in the first place. So now, I have to make a big decision. As a disabled female, I have the option of a voluntary hysterectomy. I am 28 years old. Being on the medications I am on, such a morphine for pain as well as other strong pain medications, and muscle relaxers, carry a child would be difficult for me. Not by any means impossible, because I am able to get pregnant, just if I did I would have to stop all the medication that make me comfortable and be on bed rest the entire time. I would have to REALLY want a child severely. At this point in my life however, I do not want children. I love those around me, such as my niece Lacy, Garrett,Victoria, and Anna (My best friend Andrea's children), and Brandon (Pezmaster's little boy). So this doesn't seem like an awful idea. I can always adopt. Pezmaster and I do not particularly want any other children so this would be fine for us. If for some reason, we didn't work out, then adoption would work with someone else as well. If another person couldn't deal with that idea, then in my opinion they would not be worth being with. I have always had this dream anyhow of adopting an older child and giving them the opportunity of going to school such as college and stuff. Older children are rarely adopted. People always want babies. There are millions of older children that need homes, so this would benefit me and a homeless adolescent as well.
So this doesn't have to be a negative situation and I am trying not to think of it as one!
In other news, I have taken a three week break from Graduate school to get my health back in order. I also switched my major. Instead of focuses on Special Education, I am know doing Distance Learning. I was offered a position as college professor at an online university once I graduate. WOOT! That means I can work from home at my laptop in my pajamas or maybe even naked!
Can we say hot for teacher? RAWR!
Oh yeah, just for fun I thought I would share something I have been enjoying all weekend. I really despise the way most popular music has been turning out here recently. With some few exceptions. Pezmaster has really got me listening to MC Chris, who I absolutely love. He is a white rapper who often does parody type songs of popular music. Not always though. Not to mention is currently working on a song with one of the coolest directors of all time Kevin Smith, you know from Jay and Silent Boy! Anyhow, he did a song making fun of Kesha's "My Love is Your Drug, " which I hate!
(PLEASE DON'T ATTACK ME!) Anyhow, it is so funny. Check it out. it is called "I Heart Drugs!" I so freaking love it! Enjoy!
And for those of you who also happen to love Jason Mraz, such as myself,
He is coming to the Clay Center in Charleston, WV in August! WOOOOO! I am so excited. Anyone want to go? I want to go so bad. I may just go by myself. I am sure that Pezmaster doesn't like Jason Mraz. I can hear him making fun of him already. *giggles* It is all good though. We all have different tastes in music, clothes, television, and books. It is what makes the world go round!
Much love....*hugs* Until later.....
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kraven:
I got both of them at Barnes and Nobel in the Sciene Fiction and Fantasy section. Sometimes I just look aroudn til I see something cool!
jaxy:
*hugs*