Tuesday Jul 06, 2010

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So things in my life have been pretty chaotic lately.For starters, I started graduate school. I am pursuing a Masters degree in Distance Learning Education. I want to be an online professor someday. They make good money and it would allow me to work from home and I would enjoy it as well. So if all goes according to plan, I will graduate in a little over a year. *crosses fingers* In other news, I am currently trying to move into my own place. I have been looking for a place for about three weeks or so. This process is proving to be very overwhelming. My parents are being absolutely no help at all. The whole story is complicated actually. You see, I have supported my entire family since I was 16 years old. I pay for everything. Yes, that means everything. Perhaps even things that I shouldn't. Sometimes I even go without things just so others can have them. On top of that I do not get treated with any respect knowing that I sacrifice so much for everyone else around me. I would even go as far to say I get emotional abused. I often refer to myself as a "tool." Sad, I know. So it is time for me to remove myself from the situation. I just entered a new relationship and that is absolutely perfect. I love him and I know the feelings are mutual. He is trying his best to help me escape this so called "hell." I have great friends as well. So it is not like I am alone on this. It is just hard. I want out now and it just isn't happening fast enough. I keep telling myself, "Patience is a virtue." Sometimes it just isn't that easy. Especially when you are miserable. Don't get me wrong though, I am not completely miserable. As I said before, there are parts of my life that are perfect. Just not all of it. In time things will improve I am sure. I will be sure to keep everyone updated.
brubaker:
Thanks for the comment, outcastgenius (can I call you OCG?). It was very much appreciated and gave me a lot to think about. I've spent my entire adult life living in urban areas, but growing up a somewhat spoiled brat I don't exactly have in depth knowledge of what it's like to have to live this way.

I'm about half-way into my semester into grad school, myself. Library science. So far, it's kind of kicking my ass and it's intimidating as hell, but it's actually really interesting so far. I hope I make it all the way through!blackeyed
eroticgeek:
Your welcome. I don't mind sharing my experiences. I learned a lot from them. I even think they made me a better person in some ways. I tend to think I appreciate things in life more now. As far as the outcastgenius thing it is actually a joke of sorts. In high school I was always the unpopular kid, the nerd, if you will. I always had my nose in a book and I did not participate in many activities outside the realm of academia. Hence, where the outcast came from. I even hung out with those individuals who tended to follow the same path as myself. I never made fun of others and always took those who were bullied under my wing. As for the genius part, the books led me to be somewhat knowledgeable I suppose. I got into Duke University for undergraduate school, well at least half way. Sort of a weird story. You have to be accepted twice. Once based on grades and then interviewed based on your so called "other" qualities. Once I was interviewed, they denied my acceptance. They told me that I was not socially ready for the Duke environment. It crushed me at first, but I moved on. So as a joke to all this, my friends and I made up the name "outcastgenius" to refer to all the people who did not quite fit in yet well very intelligent people who had a lot to offer the world. For future reference however, you can call me what my friends and boyfriend do and that is Jen or Jenny. Whatever you prefer. My real name is Virginia, but I hate it and only use it in school and at doctor's offices. However, I often hear it when being scolded by a parent. Go figure!eeek

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