eris23

how strange is the internet
that i can see a list that tells me with whom i am friends and that i can not recognize all of the names on that list
banal curiosities

i have accepted a position of moderation in my feelings about 'the state of the world today.' no one is completely right or wrong. it seems that everyone looks for easy answers first and foremost. only much later, after personal trials, does anyone realize that there are no easy answers, and that anyone who tells you otherwise is selling something. the blackv.s.white paradigm is not the answer.
have you ever found it necessary to just stop ~thinking~ about life? it's hard to write about what i mean because i just can't think about being alive. all that's left is to get on with it. when i think too much, i start painting myself into corners: how can i get along with others when they seem so insane? doesn't that mean everyone is intolerable? and then i forget about the ultimate integration of all-that-is, the one guiding principle of being alive. then i get freaked right out.
so i just can't think about it. life needs to be dealt with in small portions, occasionally standing back to get a look at the overall pattern, but more often just micro-movements towards simple goals. i choose to not choose sides. i accept my total ignorance of how to best get along in the world. opinions are for suckers.

yes, i admit, i am performing self-analysis in more-or-less public. shameless, utterly shameless. no more so than getting nekkid? but it's me that's paying for it.