erinachan

Hi Guys,
thanks again for the kindness Im sorry I havent been around, I have just been training but today has to be one of the worst days I have ever had. I know things have been bad but I guess I just ignored it, Me and Chris are almost homeless and it is my fault. I really thought I was making progress but I guess I wasnt. Me and Chris had a sit down and he said that he felt everything was stagnant and Im not getting better. His family feels Im just drainig all his money and his future away by being with me. I tell my mom about our fight and all she says was "I told you so" Chris says Im sick and I really need to get help my mom says Im not sick Im just lazy. It hurts me so much that everyone feels that Im just so lucky to have him that I should be so grateful that anyone would love me. i love him more than anything but right now I am so heartbroken and so depressed. I dont even know what to do. I cant stop crying I have no energy, I wont kill myself because I love Chris too much and I wont give everyone the satisfaction but I am entirely broken and in great need of help...