erin

i am backwards. i can handle falling asleep just as the sun comes up and sleeping until early afternoon, but sleeping from noon to 8pm, long after the sun goes down.... this is really getting to me. i would try to skip a night and get back on track but i start bogging down around 11 and can't deal with the sickness and wasted day waiting to fall asleep.


my sister says it's a sign of depression, never wanting to sleep. and she says when she was my age she was depressed and always felt like she was missing something. i say, hogwash. the only thing i'm missing out on is a good nights sleep.

i think the pills are starting to lose thier effectiveness. i only take half of one, which used to put me out in 1/2 hour, but now 2 hours later i'm still up. looking through the cracks in the blinds, listening to the neighbor kids yell at each other. those fucking neighbor kids... dragging furniture out of the dumpster, beating things with sticks. a whole crew of 10 or more sometimes. someone told my they were running after my cat with plastic bags, trying to catch her. i wonder what they would have done if they had...

i think i'll go camping soon. that sounds fun.