erich

I just can't trust my feelings.

I love her. That's a given. I've told her that.

The question is how do I love her?

I've had a crush on her for quite a while now. Couple years, easily.

I think what I'm feeling is a romantic love. But I'm just not sure. I can't be.

Not with everything going on in my head.

Is it a chemically induced love I feel?

Is is it the various antidepressants leaving and entering my system making me think I feel something I don't?

Is it me trying to glom onto the slightest hint of a feeling, and trying to make it into something it's not?

Or is it actual, real love, one that I'm destined to miss out on because I can't tell the difference?