ericdravyn

Henry says:



"It is no surprise to me that hardly anyone tells the truth about how they feel. The smart ones keep themselves to themselves for good reason. Why would you want to tell anyone anything that's dear to you? Even when you like them and want nothing more than to be closer than close to them? It's so painful to be next to someone you feel strongly about and know you can't say the things you want to."

"I must tell you that I was always afraid of the fury with which I loved you. It overwhelmed me. I thought it beyond comprehension, therefore my silence."

Henry Rollins

So... things are still a bit stressful, but getting much better here. Think I just got a bit overwhelmed and was starting to tweek. Reminding myself that I can't take responsibility for everyone else; reminding myself that I have to take things a step at a time... that kind of thing.

Favorite quote by a guy/girl whose name escapes me... my new mantra, if you will:
"Decisiveness is hindered by worrying about what others think, telling yourself you have to be perfect, and believing the world hinges on a particular choice."

Kind of caught between that and feeling the above Rollins quotes. Have a friends only relationship with an ex that is frequently confusing... story for another day.

Have a bunch of jobs lined up, am helping my mother move this weekend (thought I had too much stuff...), am seeing my "surrogate daughter" Friday before she leaves for three weeks in Europe and then college... waiting waiting waiting to get back on the road myself.
New Orleans in August, San Francisco and North Carolina in September, NYC a bunch of times in between. Sweet.

Rambling now, but things seem to be re-aligning somewhat... getting the metaphorical ducks in a row.

Now if I could only finalize the next move (literal, not metaphorical), and find a decent used car before my truck bites the big one for good.

Hope you all are well and thank you for those who are always checking in and kicking me back to my feet.