erica20

hey. i've been really busy. three shoots in a row in boston, lots of traveling on the shamehound.
got robbed by a photographers assistant yesterday. that was fucked up. why would someone steal from me? im very obviously poor. i found my wallet in the bathroom after the shoot with 250$ missing. fucking yuppie twat. probably needed more coke and her 500$ a month allowance from her parents just wasn't enough to support her habit. poor little rich girl. had i been braver i would have broken her fucking pretty little face. but i was polite, left, broke down sobbing, and called the photog to tell him what had happened. he told me i must have been mistaken. i hung up, cried some more, walked to central and tried to sniff out some dope, couldnt find any, cried more... went home. my boyfriend called me weak, which i am. i watched some angel dvds and went to sleep.
i have not cried in months.
i have been mostly clean for several months now.
i guess that is the type of situation that can trigger a relapse. good to know my limits i guess.
anyways, thats why i havent answered my emails.
i will hop to it. soon. im not ignoring you guys. im just in a tough spot right now, working my ass off for my small ammount of money, having it stolen from me by some trust fund kid, trying to make money with my modeling and also trying to find a job, kick heroin, keep me and joel off the streets, and deal with my crazy abusive mother who keeps calling me to tell me what a waste of life i am... this site is pretty low on my priority list. but you guys are all really nice and i promise i WILL get back to you.
love,
erica