yo.
{God DAMMIT ASJDGSHAKDFJ!!! I edited this blog with like, four paragraphs of extra shit, and for some reason it didn't post. also, my profile deleted itself the other day for no reason. site bugs piss me off. I'll summarize what I said that got deleted, but it's not going to be as in depth. as it was}
Shit is a little overwhelming right now. Me and my fiance / boyfriend / partner / guy fight alot. I wish we didn't, I hate fighting, and i love him, but we do. Theres alot of stress. I just met his entire family over the course of three days. That was terrifying. I also had to hang out with my family, who pretty much all dissaprove of me, and that was also terrifying. yay, holidays.
A friend of mine died recently. I was informed of this on Christmas. I do not know how it happened, I figured it wasn't an appropriate question to ask. He was a very sweet person, and I miss him very much. I wish I had been there to say goodbye. I had three friends die in 2008. we traveling kids are not known for our long life span, unfortunately. =(
So... on a much more positive note, I set up an account on model mayhem, and have had such a great response. I already have so many prospective projects coming up with several excellent photographers, I'm very excited. But most of all I can't wait to see the results of my shoot with devious_photos so I can submit them to SG and y'all can have a look as well. He shot three great sets for me, and I know you'll love them as much as I do. They show a side of me I've never shown before, when I saw the pictures I was amazed, I'm actually starting to believe in myself and think of myself as a model. It's crazy! and awesome... given my long history of pathetic self-loathing. I'm pretty confident that the sets we shot will help me go pink, and I can't effing wait. Looks like this is going to be a really interesting new year for me.
I have my accuplacer test tomorrow also for the phlebotomy course. I really hope that works out to me, it would be nice to have a more conventional carreer in addition to trying to make it in 'the industry.' i can't expect my 'pretty face' to pay my bills, lol.
My life is changing so fast, and It's such a huge change from living on the streets and riding freight trains all over the country, but so far I'm enjoying life on the other side. It's 100% different, everything is stange and new to me, I haven't had a stable living environment since I left home at 13, and even then I wouldn't exactly describe my childhood as stable. heh. It's a little scary, but all in all it's just another adventure. =) anyways, i'll keep you guys updated as soon as something else comes up.
much love,
Erica (AKA - Lysi)
{God DAMMIT ASJDGSHAKDFJ!!! I edited this blog with like, four paragraphs of extra shit, and for some reason it didn't post. also, my profile deleted itself the other day for no reason. site bugs piss me off. I'll summarize what I said that got deleted, but it's not going to be as in depth. as it was}
Shit is a little overwhelming right now. Me and my fiance / boyfriend / partner / guy fight alot. I wish we didn't, I hate fighting, and i love him, but we do. Theres alot of stress. I just met his entire family over the course of three days. That was terrifying. I also had to hang out with my family, who pretty much all dissaprove of me, and that was also terrifying. yay, holidays.
A friend of mine died recently. I was informed of this on Christmas. I do not know how it happened, I figured it wasn't an appropriate question to ask. He was a very sweet person, and I miss him very much. I wish I had been there to say goodbye. I had three friends die in 2008. we traveling kids are not known for our long life span, unfortunately. =(
So... on a much more positive note, I set up an account on model mayhem, and have had such a great response. I already have so many prospective projects coming up with several excellent photographers, I'm very excited. But most of all I can't wait to see the results of my shoot with devious_photos so I can submit them to SG and y'all can have a look as well. He shot three great sets for me, and I know you'll love them as much as I do. They show a side of me I've never shown before, when I saw the pictures I was amazed, I'm actually starting to believe in myself and think of myself as a model. It's crazy! and awesome... given my long history of pathetic self-loathing. I'm pretty confident that the sets we shot will help me go pink, and I can't effing wait. Looks like this is going to be a really interesting new year for me.
I have my accuplacer test tomorrow also for the phlebotomy course. I really hope that works out to me, it would be nice to have a more conventional carreer in addition to trying to make it in 'the industry.' i can't expect my 'pretty face' to pay my bills, lol.
My life is changing so fast, and It's such a huge change from living on the streets and riding freight trains all over the country, but so far I'm enjoying life on the other side. It's 100% different, everything is stange and new to me, I haven't had a stable living environment since I left home at 13, and even then I wouldn't exactly describe my childhood as stable. heh. It's a little scary, but all in all it's just another adventure. =) anyways, i'll keep you guys updated as soon as something else comes up.
much love,
Erica (AKA - Lysi)
jellyfishy:
sounds very exciting, in every way. can't wait to see how it all turns out. 