epona_____

It seems I am digging and just can't find what I am expected to look for. Things are the way they are because of mistakes that have been made. Not only one soul is to blame. There is no peace on either side with you. Even if I stepped back I would still be falling short. That is how it has always been. I could never quite reach the rope to pull myself up on that pedestal that I yearned to peer from. I lived absorbing hurtful words, guilty feelings, and physical pain that I promised myself that I would never live to tell. I refuse to subject someone so precious to such bitterness.

I know what you say-is that you have changed. And I guess so have I. I will continue to live and slowly erase this fear and animosity. If I am to late upon my redemption, let it be.

I am who I am and no more will I be pulled down.