I want something. I can't have it yet. Actually, I could, but at the expense of some things that are very important to me (relationships and money, mostly). Since I recognize that I'm one of those people who enjoys potential nearly as much as reality, this seems dangerous. Patience, I worry, might lead in my case to eventual loss of interest in what it is I currently want. Because I cease to want it? Well, because I've enjoyed the potential so much what more could I possibly get out of reality except probable disappointment. Living situations in my head is like consuming them and discarding them.
I don't want to discard this, because I think it is important. However, I can't have it yet, which leaves me no option but to enjoy the idea in my head. On the one hand, if I do end up acting I'll know it's not a momentary whim. On the other, I hope my conviction can withstand my head.
I don't want to discard this, because I think it is important. However, I can't have it yet, which leaves me no option but to enjoy the idea in my head. On the one hand, if I do end up acting I'll know it's not a momentary whim. On the other, I hope my conviction can withstand my head.
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sixsixty:
that shit plagues me almost every day of my life. i don't know how i survive, especially since i use that same rational to eventually give in.
eugene:
I dig and despise delayed pleasure. Grrrrrrr. However, I've found when I don't see something coming, I enjoy it all the more for it. Good luck.