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JEez , are you kidding me so f'in lazy

So i quit my job (well kindof a half ass quit; i went from six days a week to two) in fact i was at work yesterday with another guy who left the show a while back and someone looked at us and said: "why are you here?"

seriously Damnit i mean i can't even quit right.
not really though the whole idea that begot the half-assed-quit was, hey ill still get some money and then the rest of the time i can work on my own stuff.
Great right?
right if i actually do something
im not saying that i haven't done jack. ive gotten a bunch of stuff done
cleaned the place, bought a new car, did some editing on projects i shot awhile back.

BUT I HAVE YET TO TOUCH PAINT TO CANVAS
AHHHHHHH!
Where's the creative explosion that i was feeling right before i quit
um um um not here i dont see it under this rug or even over here in the dust bunny corner erg.

Though i can say the lucid dreams have come flooding back since i decided to take a break from the (silent H)erbage. but that just means i like sleeping alot and working on building a more cohesive and vivid dreamscape.

COnclusion:
this week i will paint or become a flagelant for shirking my creative responsibilities.