enosis_4321

You know there are a lot of things I wish I could talk about, but Im scarred that people I know might read this blog. Im pretty sure that no one actually reads this blog, but Id be mighty embarrassed if someone I did know read this and saw me open up about whats on my mind. I guess thats what a blog should be for right? Me ranting and raving about whatever I want, just throwing it out there. To hell with who ever reads it. So, Im going to do it. Im going to expose, and potentially embarrass, myself.



Fuck it.

The thing on my mind right now if how pathetic I am. Why is it that I always find myself falling in love with any woman who shows me the slightest bit of kindness. Well, I guess love is a strong word for it. I dunno what the right word for it would be. Its not lust. I just find myself moved in some way, and thinking that maybe they like me. Which of course it would seem that they do, but not in the way that I hope. I dunno, I guess Im just a lost little boy who doesnt understand how the real world works. Maybe Im just going to be incapable of being friends with anyone of the opposite sex. Which Ive heard is impossible to do. I just dont know what it is. Its everytime they laugh at a joke I make, or smile at me or give me a hug, I think hey, they must like me right? This isnt healthy, because I always get my hopes up only to have them crushed. Im just not turning out to be the type of person I thought I would be. I think thats all I can write about it now. Im sure this will come up again in the future, after all its ont on the internet now, and I can never take it back.