Life changing. My landlord has put me in an impossible situation so I am looking into purchasing a house. I am being transferred to a new office which is supposed to result in more money, but likely more extensive hours as well. I am tired of just about everyone and everything. I would rather just stop living but I have too much to do and people I have to live for. If I can settle things for everyone and fix what they need then maybe I can finally go. I have been here 33 years too long. There are always more responsibilities because no one else will or can take them. I am trapped here. I have so much to do. If I do not do it then no one else will. Everything and everyone fails me. I can find nothing that can keep up or support me. It feels like life is just mush under my feet. Like I am slogging through mud and muck. I need to be outside and away from everything. Being human just doesn't work with being me. I belong under a rock.
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knives_hannibal:
Awe....can't think lime that. That will not do at all. I know life gives you shit and you make gold out of it and keep moving. Things have been hard for me...as you know but you can't give up. You are not allowed to lay down and stop. You move forward and you keep making the difference you make even when you think you don't make a difference. You do. Don't ever think you don't. Be kind to yourself even if nobody else is. Im sorry that life isn't giving you what you deserve but you keep moving and look at the bright side of things no matter what...even if its the last thing you wanna do...
lilboo:
I know exactly how you feel. The world will not stop for us and we cannot stop. The next person, the next task, the next obligation expects from us, takes from us. This is the life we live. One more day, one more expectation ... but that's what we do. We persevere. We're not allowed to give up. We just do... but you are not alone.