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I am not averse to the concept of team work. I have never really had any use for it as team or group activities ended up being a matter of me having to do the work to make sure I am not being punished for the inabilities of the group. It has seemed that most of the people that I have had to depend on for anything have failed me. it has not been disappointing exactly. You have to expect something from people in order for that to happen. Traditionally people do exactly what I expect them to. I have generally done my best avoid depending on people. a few times I was disappointed. I wanted to believe that someone was different and that they meant what they said. It does not seem that people know what they say. mean what they say. realize the full consequence of their words. I have always avoided making promises to people because you never know what may happen and I would hate for someone to have an expectation of me that is unfulfilled due to circumstances outside of my control. I have always worried about failing people, even when I hated them. I am generally compelled in various ways to do for others.

one of the fundamental flaws in humanity is the tendency for people to have thoughts, opinions, beliefs, values, ideas, take action on the basis of really nothing. It exists everywhere and I cannot decide why. One of these days i will be able to slip away and sort if out or else it will just come to me. That is how it tends to work. I was listening to a thing on npr about how all this money exists and is invested in the various aids epidemics yet so much cannot be used because of the restrictions placed upon it. If anyone needs a very simple clear example of expressing thoughts and ideas based on nothing it is in the realm of politics. This aids epidemic prevention money is not invested in projects that work nor can it be because in the letter of the laws that authorized the funding it sets absurd restrictions such as to be used only for abstinence programs. The epidemiologist stated that 72% of those in the united states that pledge to abstinence until marry do not fulfill that pledge. Clean needle programs are not funded despite the fact that 17 of the 17 commissioned studies said that it was not only effective, but cost effective in prevention. People want to wonder why the country or the world has all of these problems. Look at our politicians and their behavior. That is a reflection of the populace and it has been shaped by them. All these people who cannot take what they think and dissect it until they get to hard facts. Their is no substance, no factual basis for their beliefs. I think this! why? well, take this long fumbling answer that goes nowhere and results in some magical thinking, something I heard somewhere and didn't investigate further, religion, commercial news sources, the general telephone game the plays out amongst people.