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OCICAT-BENGAL CROSS

Last night I took a lot of mushrooms. Last night I challenged the jungle and the sky. It answered back by stopping time and space, leaving me adrift in world that was half asleep. I was fully conscious in a dream and I thought I had died. In fact, I can pinpoint the moment I died. Laying in the backyard with a sleeping bag over me, looking at the grass in the darkness. Whatever I saw, whatever I experienced, it wrenched me away from thought and mind and self and into something else. I was thrown against rocks and consumed under tidal waves.

Then things got bad.

A MAN-WITCH IS A WIZARD OR WARLOCK

Well, I guess my ex girlfriend is a complete bitch. I have never met anyone so self centered or as blatantly selfish. There is no regard for other's feelings in her mind, except whatever dirtbag boyfriend she may have at the time. And that whole act gets old, especially when you're not having regular sex with her.

And she completely broke my heart again, the one year anniversary of the last time she did.

COMMAND THE CHAOS

And that serves to remind me that this has been, without a doubt, the most up and down, insane year of my life. I lived in New York Fucking City for half of it. That doesn't even make sense. It doesn't feel as if it, or anything, happened. But I guess a lot did, in a very minor way.