endedben

Thanks dude. I appreciate your words.
hey though, WRITE! not necessarily on here, i just mean write. Get up every fucking morning, and promise yourself that you will fill up 3 pages of fucking drivel if need be. No matter what, you will just sit down and fill 3 pages. Doesn't even matter what it is you are writing. You could fill three pages with "hmm, i don't have anything to say." but write it down.
Try it for a week. You'll be amazed.
Don't be afraid about "finding out things" and having any sort of reaction to what you figure out. That's the BEST.
yeah, sure, you may have a total fucking breakdown, but good! there is only one possible future to getting really really low in your life, and that's waking up the next day, or a week later, or even a month later, and coming up higher than you were before you hit that depth.
And yeah, I am saying this stuff in your journal because I am also trying to convince myself somewhat of the same truth.

It is true in there somewhere though. I trust me on that.