emptyharbour

Just back from coffee with the ex. I played nice, acted fairly and went in with the best intentions. The entire conversation was polite, restrained and generally mostly bullshit. Any attempts I'd make to breach deeper issues, talk about emotions or depth or memories or ANYTHING really, were brushed aside or ignored.

I'm not really mad. But all I can do now is shake my head, and wonder what the hell I was thinking before? This girl isn't who I thought she was. I fell in love with an open, creative, loving and passionate person. Or maybe I thought I did. But the person I had coffee with today is incredibly selfish, egotistical and ultimately chasing some bullshit ideal of a life. I still can't believe the hubris, the ignorance, the simple immaturity. God, I am so much better off without this girl, this child, this immature spoiled emotionally-retarded brat.

Maybe this is just a step of getting over someone. But c'mon... couldn't someone have told me I making such a big mistake back in June?

Yeesh....

Oh yeah. Off to Vancouver for the weekend. Good old friends, familiar old city, the smell of the ocean and a pile of new books to read. Sounds like a hell of a weekend to me.