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Hmm Depression, Strange how it seems so close a friend now. I tend to spend most of my time in a state of near depression, tho sometimes that nt so. Now why Am I Depressed? I think I know for the most part, I feel detached and rejected from the world, probly more then a normal feeling most people have, but since I lack friends in my area, closest one is a 2 hour drive away. Also realized that, it seems insurmountable to meet someone that actually means something to you now a days. Even more so when you have no dating experiance, I hooked up with a girl for five years she cheated lied and left me for someone else. The only real relationship I have had. The girl that came to visit was a friend, nothing more, No feelings towards her at all. Tho felt the absence of someone to be just close too. Eh off to do something else and try to get the feelings out. Have fun out there, later.