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well, i had a pretty good time last night.

went to the bar, got drunk, played pool, talked to my friends, and played Mr. Roboto on the jukebox.


but then i came home. apparently the guy my ex likes doesnt want to date her. which deep down inside i'm glad to hear. but that still doesnt change the fact that she doesnt want to date me again. which deep down inside i'm not glad to hear.

so while i'm feeling better, as both a person and a friend, i still feel empty. i dont know how to explain it to her, but i can only hope she will see that i truely do love her.

i was a terrible boyfriend to her. i've been a terrible friend to her. i've made alot of mistakes in the past that i really, really regret. i cant change the past, but i'll for damn sure make certain i don't repeat those same mistakes in the future. hopefully within time, she'll realize that i'm serious this time.

sorry for the rant

Domo arigato, Mr. Roboto