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emmy_mayhem

albucracky, born and raised

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Thursday Jul 01, 2004

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I feel like I miss everything.

Not in an emotional sense, like I miss my family. Not in a cranial intelligence sense like I dont understand math. But I feel like I wake up everyday, and something is gone. Something has passed, already happened, and I have missed it in my sleep.

I missed Warped. I missed Colins party. I missed countless job interviews for some reason or another. I dont know how to absolve this problem, and it only seems to be getting worse. The more I do or attempt to do, the waiting list of stuff to be done keeps growing. If I accomplish one thing, there is 3 more waiting. I do those, there are 7 more waiting. I still feel trapped. I have missed the proverbial boat it seems.

I need this job. I got another interview for next wednesday, which will be like the 4th interview so far. I want them to pick me. I want to get a bid. More than that, I know I need it. Not for the money or the benefits even, but to be able to have a stable event in my life, something that will be there everyday. And as a venue to prove my worth. AOL, I am the one for you.

Im so tired, and no matter how much I sleep I still feel fatigued.

Time for more cough medicine and decongestants, then attempted sleep. Bagh.
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jonnytrrrash7:
yeah babe, maybe i can visit albaquirky sometime, my dad lives in AZ so i can do the 2 birds with one song thing.....and we can bond over cheezy musicals!!!
Jul 3, 2004
jonnytrrrash7:
happy 4th of juyl!
Jul 4, 2004

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