Or rather, I've become bored with it.
It's funny how you can become addicted to something as silly as a website. But that's what this is. I don't get much of anything useful or pleasurable out of this site anymore, and I'm over trying to be a Suicidegirl. (Not that I ever tried that hard, but the current process of becoming a model for this site is so daunting, and plus I no longer feel a need for internet validation.) I'm also over reading about the lives of people I will probably never meet. Not that i don't respect or admire those people anymore, such as James or Lily or any of my other "faves." Reading about these women has definitely shaped my reality and my ideals of who I'd like to be, and for that I am grateful. But I'm more focused on my life and creating my own story now, one that I would want to read about.
I'm still undecided as to whether or not to cancel my subscription, because as I said I am addicted to this site. I've invested a lot of time and brain into Suicidegirls for the past 7 years. Instead, I think I'll just wean myself off it gradually. I kinda want to see what Pistolita's baby looks like, anyway. And I'd like to see what kind of concepts of loveliness Opaque or Oro or Annalee will present to us in future sets. It's these ladies that keep my membership hanging by a thread, haha. I enjoy the community as well, but only to a certain extent. I'm not the type of person to invest myself personally in creating "virtual" relationships. (No offense to those that are.) I am grateful for all the kindness and advice that I receive on here, though. The Suicidegirl community hosts a lot of great people.
So with that, I say goodnight. Thanks for reading. I'll be around.
It's funny how you can become addicted to something as silly as a website. But that's what this is. I don't get much of anything useful or pleasurable out of this site anymore, and I'm over trying to be a Suicidegirl. (Not that I ever tried that hard, but the current process of becoming a model for this site is so daunting, and plus I no longer feel a need for internet validation.) I'm also over reading about the lives of people I will probably never meet. Not that i don't respect or admire those people anymore, such as James or Lily or any of my other "faves." Reading about these women has definitely shaped my reality and my ideals of who I'd like to be, and for that I am grateful. But I'm more focused on my life and creating my own story now, one that I would want to read about.
I'm still undecided as to whether or not to cancel my subscription, because as I said I am addicted to this site. I've invested a lot of time and brain into Suicidegirls for the past 7 years. Instead, I think I'll just wean myself off it gradually. I kinda want to see what Pistolita's baby looks like, anyway. And I'd like to see what kind of concepts of loveliness Opaque or Oro or Annalee will present to us in future sets. It's these ladies that keep my membership hanging by a thread, haha. I enjoy the community as well, but only to a certain extent. I'm not the type of person to invest myself personally in creating "virtual" relationships. (No offense to those that are.) I am grateful for all the kindness and advice that I receive on here, though. The Suicidegirl community hosts a lot of great people.
So with that, I say goodnight. Thanks for reading. I'll be around.
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It's been good, but has served a purpose well.
I'd like to stay for a wee while, but I'm off to a strictly Muslim country soon, sites are monitered and people targeted. Sad but true, but.....that's life (and work) I suppose.
Take care.