emiloo2

I've had a very frustrating past 2 weeks....our old roomie Matt moved in because his dad passed away, (who he was living with,) work has been shitty and I'm falling behind in 2 of my classes because of some software complications. Oy vey. I've been a ball of stress lately. My shoulders are so tight they're touching my ears. And I can't find pot anywhere!

Plus, I've just been stressing about other things....I have trouble telling people when they're pissing me off and why, and instead I keep it all balled up inside and just wait for the day that I'm going to go ballistic at some inappropriate place at an inappropriate time. Sometimes it goes on for years...I resent a lot of people just because I can't tell them how I really feel, and so they continue whatever behavior it is that bugs me and soon enough I start to feel hateful towards them. Like my new/old roomate...it pisses me off to no end that he doesn't take off his shoes when he comes in the house and tracks dirt everywhere. It shouldn't piss me off as much as it does, because really, it's not that big of a deal. But it's become a big deal in my head. So why can't I just tell him that as long as he's staying in my house, he needs to leave his shoes at the door? What's so hard about that? I feel like a liar and a wimp. It's not fair to other people and really not fair to me. How does one grow balls? Can someone teach me how to grow some balls? Is there a group on here for that?

I've been thinking that I need to see a therapist. If I keep living this way I'm going to turn out like my neurotic neighbor Pam...yikes. Maybe you guys can be my therapists, haha...I mean, you are the first ones I've ever told this to. All you nice internet folk.

Alright, enough of this I need to do homework. Buhbye.