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I ate some psychedelic mushrooms about 12 hours ago.

I'm feelin pretty good. I came down quite a while ago, and now I'm in my reflective, post-trip stage. I feel like I always learn a lot about myself when I trip. It's very revealing and therapeutic, when you use it right. For example, I realized that:

a. I'm a lover, not a fighter. Always will be.
b. I'd rather ride the tide than swim against it. When life throws me waves I do better when I stay calm and swim along rather than struggle against it. But I have to be careful not to be too wishy-washy.
c. I really love women. The female body, the female brain, is so sensual and complex and beautiful. I've always been a little afraid to admit how much I love and take pleasure in looking at women, or that I desire to have a sexual experience with a woman. Why? I don't know. But I feel much more comfortable with it now, and I'm glad.

And finally, d. I realized that I don't need a certain person in my life. In fact, as cool and fascinating and admirable this person is, our vibes just don't match, and I'm tired of trying to force it. If we stay friends, cool, but really....it shouldn't take so much effort. So if not, that's cool, too.

And this is what I learned today, among other things. Oh, and I really love Tool. Really, fucking, love Tool. I also love yoga and being inside my body.

Ok, that's all. Hope everyone is well and enjoyed my ramblings.