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I'm sick. How lame. I truly do detest winter, as well as chronic insomnia. The two together make a terrible combo, and I just feel like crap all the time. Oh well.

But I did manage to do some cool shit this weekend. My friend Amanda was in town. She's one of those people who is into a million things at once, and always has fun activities up her sleeve. On Saturday we went to a breakdance competition and after seeing some wicked dancing, but a serious lack of female participants, we decided to go home and give it a try ourselves. So, after a bottle of wine, 4 hours of nonstop collaboration and many injuries, we came up with a sweet routine that has us diving on the floor, through each others legs, rolling around, spinning, kicking, and a little yoga thrown in for good measure. It's BADASS. One of these days, after we've practiced till perfection, I'll post a video on here. It's gonna take a lot of work to get it to that point though, but just you wait. We plan on being able to compete by the end of the year. Heeellll yeah! Ya'll should see my bruises, haha.

Check out these badass ladies...http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bqPPJSS9aXw. (Sorry, they've chosen to disable embedding of their vids.)

Dancing has become my life lately. It's pretty fuckin awesome. I mentioned a few posts back that I have a new job that I didn't fully reveal. I decided to start stripping about a month ago. It has it's good and bad parts, but honestly, I'm loving it. Mostly because I get to express myself through dance. I literally make money by dancing, feeling sexy, and making conversation. I get PAID to EXPRESS myself. I know what you might be thinking, that I'm selling my body and letting men objectify me and whatnot. Or maybe you aren't, whatever. But, from my point of view it's one of the most liberating and empowering choices I have ever made. Of course, there are some nights where some of the men can get out of line and say/do inappropriate things, but I don't put up with it. I don't HAVE to put up with it. In fact, I make my own schedule, choose how I want to conduct my work, and who I will or will not work with as far as the customers go. Where else could I ever have that kind of freedom? I've been searching for this job for years, and I'm so glad that I finally found it. Fucking rad.

Can I get a hell yeah? Hell yeah.

Now if I could just find a magical cure for insomnia life would be perfect. I've tried EVERYTHING....meditation, melatonin, valerian root, passion flower, chamomile, lavender, yoga, deep breathing, OTC sleeping pills....and I haven't found anything that consistently works. Then again, I haven't tried being very consistent with any of them, so maybe I need to stick to one and do it consistently. Any advice??

Oh, and btw....Vanessa is leaving the site. HOW SAD IS THIS???? I stick around this site mainly for a small group of SG's on here that I find to be truly unique and inspiring, and seeing her go has made me question my membership. I've been saying for...shit, YEARS that I'm not fond of the direction this site is taking. Where's the creativity going? I've seen so many awesome, creative sets in the hopefuls section get rejected, and it seems that the "tame" ones always go through. I feel like SG staff aren't as respectful of the girls artistic integrity as they used to be, and it's bumming me out. This "alternative" pinup site has turned into lukewarm, softcore porn, IMO. Vanessa has expressed these concerns many times as well, and I'm pretty sure that's why she's decided to leave. Anyway, go show her some love before she's archived, she will be truly missed.

Peace.