We barely remember who or what came before this precious moment,
We are choosing to be here right now. Hold on, stay inside
This holy reality, this holy experience.
Choosing to be here in
This body. This body holding me. Be my reminder here that I am not alone in
This... Read More
So, I dunno what's up with Ohio, but the last 3 days of cold-as-fuckness were really fucking lame.
But alas, today he sun is shining and although I haven't been outside yet, I'm assuming it's warm! I was sick for about 4-5 days, which started last Friday at work when I had a sudden dizzy/sweaty spell that ended in getting a ride home from a... Read More
I had a weeeird dream last night. I was visiting my sister and when I arrive at her house it has turned into a huuuge mansion and she has become really fat. Like, 350+ fat. She's acting really weird and silly, and has a butler who looks like one of my regulars from the club. (Yikes!) She's giving me a tour of her home, and... Read More
ok, I was going to flippantly write "I occassionally have strange dreams too" but that completely brushes off the fact I'm actually laughing as I read about your strange dream. My dreams seem so mundane by comparison.
That picture of the bird feeding is brilliant. G'luck studying.
I really suck as a student. I'm only taking one class and I can never seem to make it on time, if at all. I wish I knew why I'm such a procrastinator, with such bad self discipline, because maybe then I'd figure out a solution.
And here's a surprise: I never went to the doctor, either.
I'm the most kick ass failure of life... Read More
Ugh. I feel like my body is shutting down. Or maybe it's just trying to tell me something, like "STOP BEING SO DAMN STUBBORN AND GO TO THE DOCTOR!!!!" Hmmm...maybe I ought to heed this advice?
Hey. You guys are awesome awesome awesome. (I've been saying things in 3's lately, I wonder what significance it carries?) Seriously though, your support has helped me so much. And all the good vibes are making a huge impact, because I have been in a great mood! I've had an amazing turn of events in the past couple days, and I owe it all to... Read More
Wow, so this past week has been pretty crappy. I went on a road trip with an old friend, who turned out to be the same selfish, superficial, fake fake fake bitch that she always has been, (she tricked me into thinking she'd changed; why oh why did I fall for it??) and it was a disaster. Between getting caught in a blizzard, not sleeping... Read More
Good thing you have other good people in your life and a positive attitude.
A highschool teacher gave me this because she felt I had a bad attitude(she was right).
I have this attched to my computer screen Its by Charles Swindnoll, Attitude
"The longer I live, the more I realize the impact of attitude on life. Attitude , to me, is more important than facts. It is more important than the past, than education, than money, than circumstances, than failures, than successes, than what other people think or say or do. It is more important than appearance, giftedness, or skill. It will make or break a company...a church...a home. The remarkable thing is we have a choice every day regarding attitude we will embrace for that day. We cannot change our past...we cannot change the fact that people will act in a certain way. We cannot change the inevitable. The only thing we can do is play on the one thing we have, and that is our attitude...i am convinced that life is 10% what happens to me and 90% how i react to it. And so it is with you...we are in charge of our Attitudes."
I ate some psychedelic mushrooms about 12 hours ago.
I'm feelin pretty good. I came down quite a while ago, and now I'm in my reflective, post-trip stage. I feel like I always learn a lot about myself when I trip. It's very revealing and therapeutic, when you use it right. For example, I realized that:
a. I'm a lover, not a fighter. Always will... Read More
Yeah, there's plenty of stuff I don't tell them for pretty much that reason. But every so often I get all excited about something and I think surely they'll be excited for me too. How can they not be? Said thing is so exciting! Whee!
Monthly insomnia strikes again. I'm tired, moody, sick, and feel like a royal bitch. Yay.
I have a friend staying with me for a couple days and I don't even want to hang out with her. In fact, I am annoyed by her presence, because as long as she's here I have to try to be personable.
I can relate. I don't think I've managed to get to sleep before 3am once in the last 3 weeks. And typically I'll get up at around 6am~7am. Driving me bonkers. I have enough free time at the moment without needing extra time from not sleeping
Oh wait, I should be suggesting lots of remedies and helpful advice. ummmm ...
So I think I have tendinitis in my knees. I hyper extended my knee on stage Monday night, and I've been walking like an old woman ever since. Well, the left one has been sore since I started dancing and has gradually gotten worse, and Monday night was the "breaking" point. I worked again on Tuesday, which was a bitch, especially when I was... Read More
I'm sick. How lame. I truly do detest winter, as well as chronic insomnia. The two together make a terrible combo, and I just feel like crap all the time. Oh well.
But I did manage to do some cool shit this weekend. My friend Amanda was in town. She's one of those people who is into a million things at once, and always has... Read More
I'm sorry your roadtrip was a disaster. And I'm sorry to hear about your uncle. I'm sending you some good vibes. 
