Ok, so the apartment I THOUGHT we had was rented out to someone else. Sly bitches. But we found a couple more that are even more awesome, just haven't made a decision. I can't wait to get the fuck out of Dublin....we live like in the the middle of a gigantic stripmall, for reals.
Oh, speaking of strip, I suddenly have a ton of hours at work, so no dancing naked for me. Yay.
Work kinda sucks though, just cuz I'm the new girl from a small town and I feel so naive and ignorant around everyone there. They all come from unusual backrounds and/or upbringings, or have gone to some kind of special school that teaches people how to be "unique". Everyone is like uber intellectual or artsy, and while it's nice to be around "wordly" people a couple of them tend to be stuck up. I think I'm making some friends though...I just get really nervous and self-conscious around new people, especially if I'm the outsider among a tight-knit little group. It's really uncomfortable at times. I'm trying to tell myself not to stress over it, that time will pass and I'll stop feeling so nervous. I'm starting to not sleep again because of the stress, not just from the job but a bunch of things. My dog tore a ligament in her knee and is too old for surgery so she might have to live with it for the rest of her life...thats really bothering me. Also my parents are broke, I'm broke and so is Nate, we're still stuck at my brother's house and Nate has had the worst luck getting a job. (He finally started one today.) So I just keep reminding myself that all things shall pass, that eventually we'll get our shit together and have some kind of normalcy. I really really hope my dog is going to get better, though.
She's about 12 years old and still thinks that she can run around like a puppy. I wish I could at least have her with me.
OH YEAH, and on top of that, one of my oldest friends just gave birth to a stillborn, and she is the most emotionally unstable person I've ever known, and has tried to hurt herself before. I just have this horrible feeling that she might not feel strong enough to handle it...she hasn't left her house in 2 weeks, and I can't even go home to visit her because I can't afford a 2 hour trip on my car. So yeah, I've had a lot on my mind.
Well anyway, I think I just needed to get some shit off my chest. I hope none of u actually read the whole thing...I'm just writing to get my worries out. Hopefully next time I'll have some more positive news to report.
Oh, speaking of strip, I suddenly have a ton of hours at work, so no dancing naked for me. Yay.
Work kinda sucks though, just cuz I'm the new girl from a small town and I feel so naive and ignorant around everyone there. They all come from unusual backrounds and/or upbringings, or have gone to some kind of special school that teaches people how to be "unique". Everyone is like uber intellectual or artsy, and while it's nice to be around "wordly" people a couple of them tend to be stuck up. I think I'm making some friends though...I just get really nervous and self-conscious around new people, especially if I'm the outsider among a tight-knit little group. It's really uncomfortable at times. I'm trying to tell myself not to stress over it, that time will pass and I'll stop feeling so nervous. I'm starting to not sleep again because of the stress, not just from the job but a bunch of things. My dog tore a ligament in her knee and is too old for surgery so she might have to live with it for the rest of her life...thats really bothering me. Also my parents are broke, I'm broke and so is Nate, we're still stuck at my brother's house and Nate has had the worst luck getting a job. (He finally started one today.) So I just keep reminding myself that all things shall pass, that eventually we'll get our shit together and have some kind of normalcy. I really really hope my dog is going to get better, though.
She's about 12 years old and still thinks that she can run around like a puppy. I wish I could at least have her with me.
OH YEAH, and on top of that, one of my oldest friends just gave birth to a stillborn, and she is the most emotionally unstable person I've ever known, and has tried to hurt herself before. I just have this horrible feeling that she might not feel strong enough to handle it...she hasn't left her house in 2 weeks, and I can't even go home to visit her because I can't afford a 2 hour trip on my car. So yeah, I've had a lot on my mind.
Well anyway, I think I just needed to get some shit off my chest. I hope none of u actually read the whole thing...I'm just writing to get my worries out. Hopefully next time I'll have some more positive news to report.
traceelement:
Nice to hear you are getting more hours, sucks to be broke especially how it limits you being able to be there for your friend. Hectic as. 