emiloo

I just realized that I don't even know what's going on in my friends' lives, and that makes me really fucking sad.

I'm getting to the point where I'm ashamed to even call them because I've been ignoring everyone for so long.

What the hell happened? Besides the fact that I've gone into hermit-mode and have that all too familiar "spends-too-much-time-with-bf" syndrome. But I don't know why or how I've gotten to this point. I like being w/ Nate, but u can only sit around and chill so much. It would be great if he would actually be willing to go out w/ my friends and I every now and then, but he's...uh...really anti-social. My life can't revolve around him; it's just too boring. (Harsh, but true.) Plus, it's just downright shitty of me to put my friends on the back-burner.

So if anyone reading this feels that I've been ignoring/neglecting you, well...I have. I'm not sure why, but I'm sorry and I want to change it. I miss having fun, and I miss my friends.

I hope my weirdness is forgivable.