emiloo

Once again for the record I hate my job. I'm starting to think that I'm just not cut out for this kind of work. I simply don't have the tolerence for stupid, ignorant people who refuse to listen when there is a problem, let alone having to suck up to all of them like they're royalty and get them whatever the fuck they want. Plus, I'm still not learning things as quickly as I need to, because I learn by trial and error, by doing not being shown, and here it's been mostly error, and I'm shown how to do things so quickly that I immediately forget. I can't expect someone to be here and hold my hand all the time and show me how to do everything, but I still don't feel confident working by myself. And it's really hard to admit that I'm just not good at this, because I take a lot of pride in my job. I'm sick of coming to work every day and feeling like an idiot because I seem to be the only one who just isn't getting it. It's really taking a toll on my self confidence. Maybe if I didn't have to deal with stuck-up, overly-demanding and UNreasonable assholes all day I could handle it, but unfortunately I have been convinced of something that I've always known: the majority of the population is seriously composed of ignorant jerks. No joke. And for some reason a lot of them like to stay at our hotel. Maybe I'm just burnt out on customer service. I don't have patience for people. Like Nate was saying last night, w/ my hatred for the human race, it's suprising that I even work in customer service. I wouldn't mind being a housekeeper. At least then I wouldn't have to put up w/ guests so much and actually get some exercise.

Actually, maybe not. I just found out that they don't make much money. Factory maybe? I hate giving up so soon, but I really feel like I'm going insane from stress. I'm not good w/ stress.

Plus, my sched. is so erratic that once again it's been over a week since Nate and I had sex. Which I know isn't that important, and it's not hurting our relationship, but it would definitely help w/ the stress thing.

In conclusion: GRRRRRRRRR.