emiloo

I can't believe all this shit that's going down b-cuz of the tsunami. MAN I wish I could be there to help. It's so fascinating how the earth works like that...isn't it weird to think that underneath our buildings and cars and mountains and grass and OCEANS that there are entire lands unexplored? (Which I am grateful for, actually.) But it's so weird to me that the world is just this big ball of energy that is constantly moving and pushing against itself. U never think about that shit. The world, all rock and water and land, is a living creature in itself, and we're just like little bacteria spreading out and eating it all up. I've always thought, whenever there has been some sort of natural disaster, that the earth has it's own defense system. Like the earth's way of keeping the population under control, cuz people aren't the only creatures that suffer from this. Animals and plants and whole eco-systems get fucked up, like a shock, like a reminder that although we inhabit this place we will never, EVER be able to control it. As if it's giving us a well-deserved kick in the ego. Sure we can change a lot about the earth and other creatures w/ technology, but all it takes is a little slip of the geometric plates and we're aaall fucked. It's kind of awesome, if u think about it. Never underestimate mother nature, motherfuckers.

Nevertheless, it is sad that so many people are suffering. I'm thinking about donating some money thru the red cross or something, I have to look into it. I wish I had the money to hop on a plane and actually BE there, to be able to help and really experience tragedy. Sometimes I think I need that...so I can realize that I'm alive, and be grateful. I often get worried about death...I don't know why, but I'll start thinking about it a lot. I mean, all of those people, they had no idea what was coming. And there's no way for us to know what's coming, and no way to prevent it, and sometimes it scares me because I wonder if my time is running out, and why I'm not making more of what time I have. I need to...I need to go. I need to start.

And u know what pisses me the fuck off?!? When I'm trying to learn about what's going on over in Asia from a tv program, and they make it sound so damn urgent, yet they run fucking 5 min commercial breaks about how to deal w/ dry skin and fucking McDonalds!!!! Don't these people see the LACK of importance in advertising when something so big is happening!? As if commercials weren't as frivolous enough, they have to EMPHASIZE the lack of concern that people have for their fellow man by DISTRACTING them with fucking flashy advertisement!! BASTARDS!!!