emiloo

So I got pulled over for the first time yesterday. I ran a red light. He let me go with a warning. All is well.

Things have been kinda weird. I saw John for the first time in over a month and ever since he's been acting like I'm his fucking girlfriend again, calling me and wanting to hang out all the time, getting mad and huffy when I don't call him back or don't want to visit him on his lunch break. I mean I know he's lonely, and I would be too if I hadn't unexpectedly "found" someone else so quickly, but damn, it's not my job anymore to keep him happy. Also, he's extremely jealous of the Natron, and gets really pissy everytime he's brought up. He actually throws little fits. I never realized before what a tense and angry person he is....he loses his temper so easily, and doesn't just get mad, he throws things and screams and the like. It's such a contrast to what I've gotten used to w/ Nate, who I've never seen angry in my life, and I've known him for a long time. He just doesn't over-react like most people do, and it's nice. It's calm. I wish it were as easy for John to move on as it has been for me, which I feel a little guilty about, but that's just how things went. He seems pretty unhappy....just very lonely. He says he has friends to spend time with, but none to talk to. He says he misses having long conversations w/ me, and I couldn't help but laugh, because how can u miss something that rarely ever happened? So I told him he should have taken advantage of having someone to listen while he had the chance. Sometimes I guess u just don't know what u've got till it's gone.

In other news, I'm going to Columbus this weekend to visit my brother and check out some apartments. I've never driven there, so I'm a little nervous, especially if I have to drive in the dark. I'm really not good at driving at night....I can't the lines or signs very well. Which reminds me, I'm getting glasses soon!! I'm VERY very excited! I've always wanted glasses...I think they make everyone look better. The frames I picked out are kind of nerdy/naughty librarianish. They're slightly cat-eye shaped, but the frames aren't dark, so it doesn't look harsh. But yeah, they're fuckin cute. I will have to post pictures, if I ever get a digi camera. WHich I will someday!! When I am not poor! But I'm not sure how soon that will be, cuz I REALLY need to start saving my money for when I move out of this wretched box.

U know what makes me mad?? When a friend who likes looking at porn mags and going to adult bookstores, and who has always said she thinks it would be fun to be a stripper or pose nude just once, does a total 180 and says she's not sure if she could talk to me again when I say I've CONSIDERED sending in a set for SG. (Well, she said she might not talk to me anymore if I actually did it.) This is the same friend who was pissing me off in the last entry. GRRRR.

I need to stop eating so much junk food. Maybe then I'd stop making myself puke so much. HMMM, quite a concept.

So how's life for u?? Hope ya'll are doing well. I need to start updating more...I miss everyone.