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Hi everyone. I keep telling myself that I need to go to bed early, but I've gotten so used to staying up till 5 or 6am-ish that I'm not sleepy. It's weird, my body feels exhausted due to my lack of sleep/appetite combined with constant working, but despite an inability to concentrate, I feel pretty ok. This can't be healthy...I feel like a coke fiend minus the coke. And I look like one, too.

I've never known someone who attracts me more so in the mental than the physical. I mean yeah, the physical is there, but this is the first time where I actually prefer and get turned on more by talking than by touch. It's really fuckin cool, too, except for the fact that sometimes I feel the physical gets a little out of hand. I'm not yet ready to give my body so freely again, but when indulging in the moment, u tend to lose control. But all is well, and I know my limits, and he understands them. I'm just hoping that nothing happens I will regret, which logically i should have control over, but there is no logic to be found when pleasure and emotions take over. But I'll be fine, don't u worry.

Anything else I could talk about would just bring my mood down, and at the moment I am feeling quite floaty, so I'll just leave it at that. Lovies and kissies and huggies for all of u!!!