Hellooooo. Long time no read. Has anyone picked up Ani's new cd? I do recommend it...she's completely solo, even moreso than her first albums cuz she plays all the instruments and does all the backround vocals and did all the recording and mixing. It definately has it's own distinct sound compared w/ all the others. She seems a lot more vulnerable on this album. I like it.
John is home for 2 weeks on Spring Break. It's nice having him here. He's been all disgusting and lovey...it's so sweet but so annoying. But it's alright, someone has to make me feel beautiful every now and then.
I've made some friends at school. It feels really good to have a group of people that you can laugh and have fun with who you can tell really do appreciate your company. But other than that, school is actually going kind of shitty. I can't seem to get past a 63% in math, and I completely fucked up my last test. Also I've been kinda slacking in English, but I should be able to fix it. It's just very discouraging because I know that in order to do veterinary medicine I need to take a lot of math courses. If I can't even pass basic algebra then how the hell am I supposed to get through chemistry? I mean I knew it would be hard because my brain is wired to be artistic, not analytical. I really thought I could do it, though...I mean this is the first time where i actually found something I can see myself doing as a career and enjoying it. Maybe I'm giving up too easily...I'm still going to try to bring my grade up, but if I can't I might just start looking into another degree. Being short of money and having shitty grades in highschool doesn't help my options, though. Despite all of these negative thoughts I don't have any doubts about going to school and having a decent job. I just wish I knew what to do. What do you do when you love creating art but can't see yourself selling it for money, and when you love to sing and write music but don't even have the balls to let your closest friends hear what you wrote?
And how the hell do you make hiccups stop!?
Edited: Have you ever noticed how much cooler it is for a girl to hang out w? guys than it is for a guy to hang out w/ girls? I mean, whenever u see groups of kids on tv or in movies, its always like 3 guys and that one cool girl who is privelaged enough to hang out w/ them. I was also going through some people journals and a bunch of girls were all like "well I'm gonna go hang out w/ my boys" and had pictures of themselves with all their dudes, but i didnt find any where the guy was like "well i'm gonna go chill w/ my girls" or being w/ a bunch of girls without some sort of "i'm a pimp" comment. I mean I know that it can feel empowering or whatever to be "one of the guys", in fact i usually enjoy hanging out w/ guys more than girls. But c'mon boys, there's no shame in chillin w/ cool females. I mean if it's alright to wear eyeliner then there isn't reason to feel any less masculine if u prefer the company of females. And stuff. Ok I'm done ranting. G'nite.
John is home for 2 weeks on Spring Break. It's nice having him here. He's been all disgusting and lovey...it's so sweet but so annoying. But it's alright, someone has to make me feel beautiful every now and then.
I've made some friends at school. It feels really good to have a group of people that you can laugh and have fun with who you can tell really do appreciate your company. But other than that, school is actually going kind of shitty. I can't seem to get past a 63% in math, and I completely fucked up my last test. Also I've been kinda slacking in English, but I should be able to fix it. It's just very discouraging because I know that in order to do veterinary medicine I need to take a lot of math courses. If I can't even pass basic algebra then how the hell am I supposed to get through chemistry? I mean I knew it would be hard because my brain is wired to be artistic, not analytical. I really thought I could do it, though...I mean this is the first time where i actually found something I can see myself doing as a career and enjoying it. Maybe I'm giving up too easily...I'm still going to try to bring my grade up, but if I can't I might just start looking into another degree. Being short of money and having shitty grades in highschool doesn't help my options, though. Despite all of these negative thoughts I don't have any doubts about going to school and having a decent job. I just wish I knew what to do. What do you do when you love creating art but can't see yourself selling it for money, and when you love to sing and write music but don't even have the balls to let your closest friends hear what you wrote?
And how the hell do you make hiccups stop!?
Edited: Have you ever noticed how much cooler it is for a girl to hang out w? guys than it is for a guy to hang out w/ girls? I mean, whenever u see groups of kids on tv or in movies, its always like 3 guys and that one cool girl who is privelaged enough to hang out w/ them. I was also going through some people journals and a bunch of girls were all like "well I'm gonna go hang out w/ my boys" and had pictures of themselves with all their dudes, but i didnt find any where the guy was like "well i'm gonna go chill w/ my girls" or being w/ a bunch of girls without some sort of "i'm a pimp" comment. I mean I know that it can feel empowering or whatever to be "one of the guys", in fact i usually enjoy hanging out w/ guys more than girls. But c'mon boys, there's no shame in chillin w/ cool females. I mean if it's alright to wear eyeliner then there isn't reason to feel any less masculine if u prefer the company of females. And stuff. Ok I'm done ranting. G'nite.