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I started school yesterday. It was schoolish...nothing special. I'm happy i finally got that all together, though. I had my hair cut today, not very different, but added some side-sweepy bangs to my otherwise style-less hair. John is coming home tomorrow. I'm kind of excited. Starting to get used to life w/out him...we'll see what happens. We might go see sgburlesque on valentines. Gonna see if I can convince him into letting me sumbit some pics, but I doubt it. I've always wanted to do nude modeling, which is quite ironic because of my poor body image. I think it would be a good way of letting go of those fears, though. Have you ever known anyone w/ an eating disorder? I've been battling one for about 6 or 7 years now. I've gotten a lot better. I'm not sure if I'll ever fully defeat it, but I've definately got it under control. It's funny, I'm actually thinner now than when I was at the worst point of my bulimia. Unfortunately I'm left w/ stretchmarks as a reminder, but it's ok. No one gets through a battle w/out some scars. My lips are chapped and sore. I have a stupid and degrading rap song stuck in my head. My doggie just came in Dogs kick ass cuz they wag their tails all the time. It's like a person who smiles all the time but more genuine. People who smile all the time irk me. People irk me in general, actually. Dogs never irk me. Neither do any animals, for that matter. I think, if there is such a thing as reincarnation, that I will come back as some kind of wild animal. At least I hope so. Maybe a humming bird, cuz they eat at least 14,000 calories a day but are still tiny and graceful. Plus all they eat is sugar. Yum