emiloo

I hate endings. I know that my boyfriend will be leaving for college in 3 days, and despite the fact that it's only a 2 hour drive, we'll probably someday split up. Neither of u wants to, but it's an inevitability of life. We can talk on the phone all we want, but it's human instinct to want human contact, and if u can't get it from the person ur "with", ur going to eventually seek it in someone else. That sucks. U'd think being such mentally powerful creatures and whatnot that a relationship would be able to survive on thoughts and similar opinions alone, a mental connection. Things like this just remind of how not so advanced we are. Damn this sucks. I hate crying till2 in the morning and having to go to work the next day with puffy red eyes. I look like some sort of weird dog. It's one thing to lose your lover, but to lose your best friend and only companion is like watching your heart being pulled from your chest by the chain that binds you to them. I'll just have to remember how to breathe on my own again somehow. Fuckin life. It's always kicking me in the ass.