emi

i found some stuff i wrote as a young teen.
have a laugh at my efforts to find myself.

this was for someone i liked that wouldn't date me because i was too young.

still waters run deep
and currents are strong
under the stillest of waves.
don't judge my depth
by looking at the surface
you have to go under to know.

i wrote this to a fella who had a penchant for making me feel terrible then making me feel amazing immediately after. he said i was volatile and i said he was vanilla.

you don't hate the moon
because it is inconsistent as it grows then fades to nothing.
its a deadly flaw
though, for me to do the same
so why then, do you admire the moon?

nature's beauty is often from its "flaws"
and am i not nature?
perfection is subjective to the one
who will judge it with an open mind.

i was the kid without the optimism.
there's more poetry in the simple "i love you"s i say now than i had in my entire body back then.