I am new here on Suicide Girls and hope to be shooting my hopeful photo set within the next couple of weeks and I can't wait for that! For my first blog I will go ahead and do the 3 wishes post I saw a couple days ago. My first with would be to have my dad back....he was my best friend and I could always go to him with anything I needed. I was a daddy's girl all my life and he was always there for me. He committed suicide 2 years ago and I don't feel like I will ever fully recover from that. I can't help but feel like I couldn't save him. If love could have saved him, he would have lived forever...my second wish would be for me to have a closer relationship with my mom. After my dad passed away, she moved back to California to be with her family, which I don't blame her for. I am an only child and she really had no other reason to stay in Missouri. I worry about her a lot because she is still not used to being alone without my dad around. Some day I hope to move closer to her so I can be there for her like I should be. My last wish would be to never grow old. Of course I would want the same for all my close friends and family so I wouldn't have to see them leave me. I am terrified of getting older. I just turned 30 a couple of months ago and it is kind of setting in that I am not young anymore!
I hope you enjoy learning about me over the coming months and I can't wait to be a part of Suicide Girls!
xoxo, Ash